The String of Balls - Chapter 2

“Fumi…um, I’m sorry…”

As soon as we were alone, Koto bowed his head apologetically and apologized.

There’s nothing to be apologized for… other than his outburst earlier.

“…Do you want me to forgive you?”

After saying this in a sulky voice, Koto timidly raised her head and opened her mouth.

“What can I do to make you forgive me?”

“So… close the curtains and come over here?”

He patted the duvet and motioned for her to climb into bed.

Koto flinched and looked at me with a confused look on his face, wondering what was going to happen to him, then froze in place.

There’s no need to be so scared because they’re not going to do anything bad.

“Eh…um…”

“You want me to forgive you, right? I’m angry.”

After saying this brusquely, Koto quickly closed the curtains, took off her shoes, and climbed into bed.

“Is it okay to do it here…?”

“Here. Straddle my waist.”

“Uh…yeah…”

Koto got into the same position as when he was kissing that woman in front of me the other day and stared at my face, confused.

I’ll overwrite it for you… and you’ll never give anything about me to anyone.

I’ll repaint it. I’ll make sure you can only think of me.

She hugged Koto’s neck and slowly brought her face closer to him.

“Watamu… I…”

Maybe he calmed down and realized he had cheated.

He looks away from me and looks distressed.

Hehe… so cute.

“That’s what I wanted you to do, right? So there’s nothing wrong with you. I loved you so much that I didn’t know what to do, and you helped me out when I was suffering.”

“I… wrote a letter?”

“Right? Koto, this isn’t cheating. Because, you know? I haven’t done anything wrong.”

I’ll spoil you to your heart’s content.

You don’t have to feel guilty, okay?

I know that he’s not cheating, that he’s serious.

“…But…even though I was dating Kotone, I kissed Fumi…and I even touched her br3asts…”

Koto is so kind…she doesn’t blame me.

I’ve prepared an easy way for you, yet you still blame yourself. It would be easier if you just went with the flow… but I like that about you too.

“It’s because I asked you to touch me, right? It’s not your fault.”

“It’s not that… I… I’ve always wanted to kiss you, Fumi. I wanted to touch your br3asts too. It felt good, and I was happy… I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”

That’s… who are you apologizing to?

Kawasaki-san? Or me?

“Koto, look up?”

“Sniff…”

Ugh… Koto’s crying face… it sends shivers down my spine… I want to destroy her… but I have to talk now.

“I like Koto. Do you like me, Koto?”

“…Yeah. I… like Fumie. I’m sorry I couldn’t give up on you…”

“No, it’s fine. I’m happy. But… you like me too, Kawasaki-san, right?”

So you’re blaming yourself?

There’s no point in saying that I wish I had realized my feelings sooner.

Kawasaki-san might not have noticed if he hadn’t been involved with Koto. …But that doesn’t mean I’m going to give in or anything.

“……sorry……”

“I know… I’m not blaming you. Koto, listen to me.”

He gently reassures Koto, who keeps her eyes downcast.

He gently stroked my head and told me not to cry, like I was soothing a child.

“…I think Kawasaki-san said this before, but I don’t want to make Koto suffer. I feel the same way, I just love Koto. So don’t blame yourself… okay?”

“…Fum…”

He sniffled and looked at me with a pleading expression, and his eyes nearly made my sanity crumble, but I managed to stay strong and continued speaking.

“Let’s be honest about us. I’ll explain it to you, and I was the one who asked you out. But I turned you down many times.”

“…I don’t want that. *sniff*…It’s not your fault. I’ll…talk to Kotone. I may not be forgiven, but I’ll apologize properly.”

If you forgive me…what will you do?

Aren’t we talking about breaking up?

Makeup with Kawasaki and then dump me…?

…I won’t allow that.

“Koto… won’t you stay with me?”

“……sorry”

Sorry? An apology isn’t what I want to hear.

I wish you would just tell me you love me and want to be with me forever.

“…I see. So Koto likes Kawasaki-san more than me.”

“…………sorry”

They won’t tell me it’s not true.

… Koto is so kind. In truth, he likes me more, but he can’t abandon me because he’s dating that girl.

But… I was a little hurt.

“Koto… I only told one lie.”

“…Liar…What are you talking about?”

“You see, I’ve never had s3x before. The kiss I just had was the first one I’ve ever had. That solid kiss was my first kiss.”

“Eh… Ah… I see…”

Hehe… you look so happy… you can’t hide it at all, you know?

You’re happy, aren’t you? I was happy to be able to kiss you too.

“…Please. Just kiss me one last time…?”

“I… but…”

“Koto… please. This is the last time… I want to end it with at least happy memories.”

“…I’m sorry…Fumi…”

“I’m sorry, I wish you’d say you love me…”

Putting your feelings into words makes them stronger.

“…Fumi…I love you…hmm…”

“Hmmmm…”

A long kiss…like he’s saying he doesn’t want to let go.

Koto really does love me… hehe…

“Puha… Thank you, Koto…”

“Text…”

The heat disappeared from my lips and a silence passed through my air.

This isn’t goodbye so you don’t have to look at me like that.

While looking away from the situation, he purposely speaks words that arouse his possessiveness.

“Well then… I’m going to have s3x with Shinobu-kun.”

“Eh… Ah, wh, why…”

Hahaha, I’m so nervous.

I’m sure you’d be surprised if someone suddenly said something like this to you. But there seems to be more to it than that.

Is it okay? My beloved childhood friend is going to leave me?

“…It has nothing to do with the matter, right? We’re friends, right?”

I glared at him and he went quiet and looked down again.

Cute… but I was hurt even more.

If I overdo it I’ll start crying so I’ll stop…

“…I’m sorry, that was a nasty thing to say. …It’s painful and difficult…I thought that if we had s3x, these feelings would go away…I was so happy when you touched me.”

“… the sentence is… my…”

Hmm? Maybe it worked too well?

“Things…?”

“Bun…open your mouth…”

“picture?”

Hehe… see, I thought so.

Even though I’ve found out that the person I’ve liked for a long time and we’re in love with each other, there’s no way I’d just say “goodbye.”

“Quickly”

“Like this? Hmm…”

When I opened my mouth wide, saliva flowed in running down Koto’s tongue.

It was poured in… I think. The inside of my mouth was filled with it. It was hot, sweet, and delicious… my brain was tingling with pleasure.

Koto looked at me with a crooked grin and a look of satisfaction.

“Hmmm… Koto… Can I have more?”

“Fumi… Fumi is mine, right? You’re not going anywhere, right?”

“Hehe… it depends… I guess…? Tell me who I belong to…?”

“The sentence is… nrrrr… my, my sentence… mmm…”

He’s serious, kind, indecisive, and easily influenced…everything about him is lovable.

I love you Koto…I will never let you go, I will never let you go, I will never let you go away.

You can stay with that girl for now. I forgive you.

Because I’m serious, because I’m kind, because I’m indecisive, because I’m easily influenced…you can’t abandon me, right?

We’ll always be together from now on, okay? Koto asked me to… hehe…