The string of balls -

Episode 5: CPL

“Hehe… Do you like my hair, Kotonoha?”

“Eh? Ah, sorry. It just feels good…”

Before I knew it, he had stopped crying. I was so engrossed in petting him…

“We’re lovers, so you can touch me however you like. I also enjoyed having someone I love stroke my hair, knowing it would feel so good.”

“Um… well… I’d be happy if you could hold back a bit on the people you like.”

It’s just embarrassing in general…

When someone says it so bluntly, it makes me feel awkward or embarrassed.

“Hm? I see… I like you, Kotonoha. I’ll do my best to make you like me too, so be prepared.”

“Well, that’s why…”

“I love you, I love you. Kotonoha…Hey, don’t hide your face. Even your embarrassed face is cute.”

It’s not that I love you!　 It’s that you love me!

Anyone’s face would turn red if they were told they loved you! Enough already! I’m angry!

“Kotone, you’ve had someone you liked stroke your hair before, huh…”

“it is……”

See, you’re getting too cocky! Reflect on your actions a bit!

“Are you jealous?”

“N-No!”

“Hehe, there’s no need to be embarrassed… I’m happy. It’s an old story so don’t worry, right? Right now, I only have eyes for Kotonoha.”

“That’s why I like it!”

Oh, I shouldn’t say that.

It would hurt Kotone terribly. Even if I knew it, I would never say it out loud.

“…You’re so kind, Kotonoha. It’ll be okay, I understand.”

“Well… I’m sorry…”

“Ahh… I’m deeply hurt…”

“sorry……”

It was no good once it got to that point.

It was not something I should have said to someone who told me they loved me. Even if I wanted to deny it, I’m sure there were better ways to say it…

I can’t see your eyes…

“I’ll forgive you if Kotonoha gives me a kiss.”

…Huh? I feel like… I’m being led astray?

No, it’s my fault, but… I feel like something like this happened before…

“…Um, Kotone? I had a vague feeling that that was the case…”

“Hayama-san is so cute… I know I’m no match for her, but… sniff…”

Whhhaaat?! I made her cry?!

“Y-y-Kotone! I’ll… I’ll do it… so don’t cry?”

“Sniff… Will you say you love me?”

“Y-yes… I love you…”

“What about Chu?”

I can’t resist when she begs me with her eyes downcast sadly…

Is it a sense of guilt, or a desire to protect? Kotone is so cute when she’s weak… right…?

He bent down and gently placed his hand on Kotone’s cheek.

Those eyelashes are so long…..they have such sharp, captivating eyes….

Her white skin is slightly red…I wonder if she’s nervous…

Her lips also feel a little…sexy…

I’m going to kiss such a beautiful woman… It feels like a disrespectful act, or maybe a shame.

“Mmm… I love you, Kotone…”

“Kotonoha…more.”

“Hmm… hmm… aah, um… are you okay now?”

“If you say you love me, I’ll forgive you…”

Yeah, that’s true…it’s my fault, and we are lovers after all…

“…I love you. Kotone… mmm… I love you… mmm… I love you, I love you…”

It feels good…

It’s hot, sweet, and feels so good that it tingles and numbs your whole body.

I can’t help it, because that’s what Kotone wants. Because I did something wrong and she wants me to be forgiven.

“Kotonoha… I love you too… mmm…”

Even though my heart had been torn apart so completely, it felt so good to be melted into a sticky, sweet mess by Kotone. If I let myself go, I felt like I would just keep falling deeper and deeper…

Huh? I like Fumie and Kotone is my best friend.

“Phew…umm…Kotone…is it okay…?”

“Just a little more… hmm… ree…”

Not only were their lips pressed together, but their tongues naturally joined together.

The sound of water splashing echoed, and my breath quickened. It felt good. The heat I felt on my tongue spread throughout my body, and my lower abdomen throbbed.

If kissing Kotone feels this good, then if I could kiss Fumie too…

“…It’s over! It’s over!”

“Hehe… I see, that’s unfortunate. However, I was very happy to hear that you like me.”

Kotone’s innocent remark makes my heart ache.

I’m the worst… Even while I was kissing Kotone, I thought about Fumi. And not just once, but many times.

“…Yeah, I love you, Kotone.”

As if to mask the pain in my chest, I pasted a smile on my face and spoke empty words.

I know that this doesn’t mean I’m forgiven, but at least it will make Kotone happy.

…I’m so unfair. Not for Kotone’s sake, but for my own guilt.

“Kotonoha, don’t make that face.”

“That……”

“I know. I love your smile, Kotonoha. I didn’t ask you to kiss me because I wanted to hurt you.”

“Kotone…”

I wonder if my shameless thoughts were seen through…

I wonder if Kotone will start to hate me for being like this, even though I hate myself.

“…I’m sorry.”

“Don’t worry about it. I don’t care. And besides, I see I have a chance, hehe.”

“It’s just a trial…”

“Huh? Ah, that’s not what I’m talking about.”

So you’re saying that a limited-time lover is your chance?

Did I say anything else?

“What do you mean, not that one?”

“Kotonoha, that looked like it felt good…”

“Huh!?”

What is this woman suddenly saying?

“His eyes were glazed over, and he desperately clung to my tongue, trying to entwine it…”

“I, I didn’t do that!!”

“I’m the only one who knows Kotonoha’s sappy face… He’s never shown it to anyone else, only me…”

“I, I, I didn’t make that face…”

I was just comforting Kotone, but I don’t care…

I-I haven’t…right…?

“I see… it felt good for me, but for Kotonoha… I agree. It felt bad… kissing a girl you don’t even love.”

“No! It felt good…”

So don’t look so sad.

When I see that face, my heart skips a beat…huh? No…it feels like my chest is tightly gripped.

“Hmm? Can you say that again? Your voice was too quiet for me to hear.”

“So, um… it felt good…”

“Hmm, what felt good?”

“That’s why… The kiss with Kotone! It felt so good! You could hear it!”

This woman! She’s getting ahead of herself!

You think I’m the kind of girl who will do whatever you say?!

…Huh? What’s that smartphone?

“Kissing Kotone! It felt so good!”

“Hehe… that felt good for me too, Kotonoha.”

This guy has to be a lie…I can’t believe it…

“Um, Kawasaki-san? What’s that?”

“Kissing Kotone! It felt so good!”

“Please stop being so formal. We’re lovers, aren’t we? We even kiss each other passionately.”

“…turn it off right now.”

“I refuse. No matter how much Kotonoha begs me, I can’t listen to her. I’ve decided to set it as my alarm clock and wake up every morning feeling happy.”

Hmm, what a pervert….a crazy psycho lesbian…

This is not the face of someone who will listen. I know that whatever I say is useless, so there is only one way left.

……give up.

“…Make sure no one else can hear you.”

“I know. There’s no way I’d let anyone else hear such a cute Kotonoha’s voice, right?”

“Ah, I see…”

I heard the sound of the image of Kotone in my mind crumbling away.

My best friend is brave, intelligent, beautiful and kind. She gave me courage when I was alone, telling me that I had friends and that I wasn’t alone. She’s my one and only best friend.

“Hehe… ‘Kissing Kotone! It felt so good!’ Mmm! Me too, Kotonoha!”

No, that’s fine. They look happy.

But, how should I put it….well, never mind.