Can I still be saved? [Transmigration] - Chapter 33.2

Until midnight, he still couldn’t sleep.

He has often suffered from insomnia in recent years. Only twice had he slept well, through the entire night.

Fu Hanzhou sat on the balcony with a cigarette in his mouth.

The scarlet dots were extremely prominent at night.

In the swirl of smoke, a wave of irritation and disgust surged in him.

Disgust toward himself. Disgust toward the world.

This deep-rooted disgust in Fu Hanzhou’s heart would break out from time to time.

Like a furious, feral beast, it stirred restlessly inside him, ready to tear him apart.

Fu Hanzhou stood on the balcony, staring at the pitch-dark villa district, and the disgust in his heart grew heavier.

It wasn’t high enough here.

The second floor was too low.

Fu Hanzhou jumped down from the balcony, wearing only a thin shirt, and left.

In the late autumn night, Fu Hanzhou wandered for a long time.

He had planned to find a higher place, but unconsciously, he walked to the downstairs of Su Yunjing’s building.

It was already 2 a.m., and all the residents’ lights were off.

Fu Hanzhou stood downstairs, counting the floors one by one.

At 3 a.m., the nineteenth floor was dark.

At 4 a.m., the nineteenth floor was dark.

At 5 a.m., some lights came on in other apartments, but the nineteenth floor remained dark.

At 6 a.m., most of the residents had their lights on, but the nineteenth floor was still dark.

At 7 a.m., one apartment on the nineteenth floor turned on its light, but the window he was looking at remained dark.

Fu Hanzhou counted the floors again. When he reached nineteen, it was still that same dark window.

Obsessively, he kept counting.

Over and over, more than ten times.

Until the sky was completely bright, the other homes had turned off their lights, but that window remained unlit.

…..

Su Yunjing originally thought this trip home would be just an overnight stay.

Unexpectedly, Wen Yanlai’s friend had already arranged for his transfer to a new school.

He had been at Henglin No. 1 High School before. For safety, Wen Yanlai had arranged for him to transfer to Henglin No. 2 High School.

On Monday, Su Yunjing went to visit the school and discuss enrollment.

His student registration was still in Nanzhong High School, so it would take a few months to officially transfer.

Wen Yanlai wanted Su Yunjing to spend more time with her, but there was trouble on Xu Hongwen’s side.

Back when Xu Hongwen’s wife was pregnant, he cheated and got together with Wen Yanlai, resulting in an illegitimate child.

Recently, this matter was exposed to his family. If not for Xu Hongwen being gravely ill, things would have blown up.

After fighting with Su Yunjing, Xu Huai even planned to cause more trouble.

This was one of the reasons Wen Yanlai wanted to send Su Yunjing back home as soon as possible.

Because of this, Wen Yanlai was also angry. But making a scene would benefit no one, so the only solution was for Su Yunjing to go back and avoid trouble.

Wen Yanlai gently advised, “Your grandpa isn’t feeling well now. Since everything’s been arranged for your transfer, don’t go back. Just study here.”

Su Yunjing froze. “But… I still have a lot of things at Nanzhong High.”

Wen Yanlai: “I’ll have someone pack for you. Aside from what’s in your schoolbag, is there anything else important?”

Su Yunjing opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but after thinking seriously, there seemed to be nothing particularly important.

Except for Fu Hanzhou.

He was still worried about the little cool cub, about his mental state.

Recently, Su Yunjing had been self-studying psychology, but this wasn’t something you could just learn by yourself.

After reading so many books, he felt like he’d gained nothing.

He cared about Fu Hanzhou, but since Fu Hanzhou clearly didn’t appreciate it, his concern just seemed redundant.

In the end, Su Yunjing shook his head, saying there was nothing else he needed to take.

After finishing the talk with Wen Yanlai, Su Yunjing called Old Wu around school dismissal time.

Since Wen Yanlai didn’t plan to let him go back, Su Yunjing wanted to see if he could persuade Fu Hanzhou to accept psychological counseling.

But unfortunately, Old Wu wasn’t working that day.

After a pause, Su Yunjing said, “Then please tell him I’m transferring back home.”

Old Wu was surprised. “Why are you suddenly transferring?”

Su Yunjing couldn’t say the real reason, so he made up an excuse, “My grandpa’s leg isn’t good. The weather in the capital is too cold, but it’s warmer back home, so we’re going back to take care of him. I want to go back with them.”

Old Wu followed along with the story, asking about his grandpa’s condition, and even gave him a few folk remedies.

After chatting a bit about the illness, Su Yunjing shifted the topic back to Fu Hanzhou.

“Hanzhou doesn’t have a phone. My aunt is worried my grandpa’s condition might worsen, so this transfer happened very suddenly. Uncle Wu, please tell him for me.”

“Alright, alright.”

Su Yunjing also wanted Fu Hanzhou to call him.

But thinking about Fu Hanzhou’s extremely stubborn and tsundere personality, he didn’t say it in the end.

“Then I won’t bother you, Uncle Wu. I don’t have anything else.”

“Come visit during the holidays. I’ll pick you up at the airport.”

“Okay.”

After hanging up, Su Yunjing sighed.

Nothing bad should happen to him. After all, he’s the second male lead and the heroine’s golden helper in her career. It’s impossible for him to be in real danger.

And if leaving a little cool cub was going to have serious consequences, the book-transmigration system would definitely give him a warning.

Since there had been no warnings, it meant there would be no problem.

Comforting himself with that, Su Yunjing stopped thinking about Fu Hanzhou.

…..

On Thursdays, the East Cafeteria offers special dishes—sometimes Japanese, sometimes Thai.

Although the flavors aren’t authentic, they satisfy students’ curiosity.

So on Thursdays, the cafeteria lines are extra long.

Last time, Lin Lie managed to grab some takoyaki. The taste was so-so, so he didn’t bother this time.

Tang Wei wasn’t keen on eating. He sat with his phone, chatting with someone.

His QQ notification kept pinging.

Lin Lie had never seen him so focused before. His brows twitched. “What’s this? You got something going on?”

Tang Wei’s fingers flew over the screen without looking up. “What do you mean?”

Lin Lie suddenly stood up, snatched Tang Wei’s phone, and looked at him like a homeroom teacher catching a student. “Are you in an early romance?”

Tang Wei snapped, “What the hell are you talking about!”

“Tsk tsk, didn’t think you liked this kind of thing.” Lin Lie blocked him while checking who he was talking to.

“‘Recognizing people by their voices?’” Lin Lie glanced at Fu Hanzhou beside him. “Isn’t this Wen Ci’s QQ name?”

At the mention of this name, Fu Hanzhou’s fingers paused slightly.

“Give me my phone back,” Tang Wei said, snatching it back. “I just got in touch with him. What are you messing around for?”

Lin Lie studied Fu Hanzhou, then tilted his chin at Tang Wei. “Ask him where he went. Why hasn’t he come to school for days?”

“You think I need you to tell me?” Tang Wei rolled his eyes.

These past few days, Su Yunjing had been busy and hadn’t been online. Lin Lie and Tang Wei only had his QQ, not his phone number.

For students their age, QQ is often more convenient than a phone number.

Tang Wei looked at his phone and suddenly slammed the table. “Damn, he actually transferred schools! Transferred back to his hometown…”

“How do you pronounce this character?” Tang Wei handed his phone to Lin Lie.

Lin Lie looked and said disdainfully, “Héng. Henglin No. 3 High School. You don’t even know this character?”

Tang Wei was unbothered, even smug. “Who says I have to know it? Does it know me? It doesn’t know me, so why should I know it?”

Lin Lie: “…”

“What’s wrong with this guy? Transferred without even telling us. Saying sorry—sorry my ass. I almost thought he’d been kidnapped and was ready to call the police.”

Tang Wei cursed while typing a reply to Su Yunjing.

Lin Lie hadn’t expected Su Yunjing to transfer, either. He frowned and looked at Fu Hanzhou.

His expression was unchanged, as if the news didn’t affect him.

But Lin Lie still noticed his long, slender fingers tightening silently around his chopsticks.

The pale knuckles turned slightly white.

Lin Lie’s brows furrowed.

At that Japanese restaurant last time, Lin Lie had told Su Yunjing: If you can’t figure out Fu Hanzhou’s thoughts, wait for him to come to you instead.

But who would’ve thought Su Yunjing would pull something like this, quietly transferring schools without a word.

He hadn’t expected this at all, and he was worried about Fu Hanzhou.

Fu Hanzhou’s attitude toward Su Yunjing was obviously different.

At first, it was just that he paid more attention to him, but his attitude was the same as toward everyone else: “don’t reject, don’t respond, don’t engage.”

But later, Lin Lie realized he had simplified the relationship between the two. Fu Hanzhou’s ‘three no’s’ policy toward Su Yunjing was only on the surface.

That day, Lin Lie and Tang Wei didn’t find Fu Hanzhou in the cafeteria, so he asked Tang Wei to help him get food and went to check on him in Class 5.

The last class of Class 5 in the morning that day was a physical education class. Logically, Fu Hanzhou should have arrived in the cafeteria earlier than them.

But with the English teacher staying in class, the two of them went to the cafeteria and did not see Fu Hanzhou.

So Lin Lie went to find him.

It was right at lunchtime, so the classroom should have been empty, but there were still two people: Su Yunjing and Fu Hanzhou.

When Lin Lie walked in, Su Yunjing was giving food to Fu Hanzhou, but Fu Hanzhou pushed it back.

Moments later, he quietly picked it back up.

Then Su Yunjing gave him another piece, and he reacted the same way.

It was such childish behavior, like a little kid throwing a tantrum.

When they’re mad, no matter what you give them, they refuse to eat it.

But deep down, they actually want it.

So he threw the food away to show his disdain, then picked it back up again, convincing himself that it wasn’t given to him by someone else that he had picked it up himself.

In simple terms, he was just giving himself an excuse, a way to eat it without losing face.

It’s a very awkward, self-conflicted mindset.

He clearly wanted it. He clearly cared.

But for some unknown reason, Fu Hanzhou kept resisting and rejecting.

Lin Lie didn’t know what was going on between the two of them or what had happened.

That was why, that day, he had advised Su Yunjing to wait for Fu Hanzhou to come to him.

Kids like that—if you ignore them, they’ll feel insecure and come looking for you.

Now this ‘kid’ was still trying to act indifferent.

But Lin Lie knew that he actually cared a lot.

Anyway, it was too late to talk about it now. Su Yunjing had already transferred, and the result left Lin Lie very surprised.

He thought that once Fu Hanzhou figured things out, the four of them could sneak off for hotpot together again.

Lin Lie felt a bit regretful. Clearly, there was no chance of that now.

“Why did Wen Ci transfer so suddenly? I thought he was sick and just on leave.”

“No idea. If I hadn’t seen someone come take his stuff, I wouldn’t even know he transferred.”

“We just started getting along, and now he’s gone for no reason. We were getting along fine, weren’t we?”

After the lunch break, Fu Hanzhou returned to the classroom and heard everyone chatting lively about it.

He stood at the classroom door, looking at the empty seat next to him. The books that were once there had been taken away.

At that moment, Fu Hanzhou showed a blank, dazed expression.