After An Alpha Discovered I Have Pheromone Deficiency Syndrome - Chapter 23

Chapter 23:Confession I Just Want To Be With You

When Hua Che woke up, she stared blankly at the ceiling.

“Didi ”’s electrocardiogram detector was making a soft sound, and after the anesthetic passed, bursts of tingling on his wrist made him more conscious.

His whole body was so light that he couldn’t feel the presence of his body. He wanted to raise his hand, but his body didn’t listen at all.

The strange ceiling and the smell of disinfectant water are faintly wrapped in the air.

A cold and clean smell is particularly abrupt, but it can make Hua Che feel at ease.

He stayed for a while before realizing he was in the hospital now.

He lay quietly, his eyes fixed on the ceiling.

So, did the plan work out?

He called reporters in advance to put out news, stepped on the store manager and said that he would commit suicide by slitting his wrists when he set off for a label cleaning operation. When the ambulance arrived at the entrance of Lingguan, he made the matter a big deal with overwhelming public opinion news.

He was going to be a dangerous being and no guest would be willing to pay for a mentally ill person.

If he is lucky, the store manager will even abandon him, give up threatening him with locks and black households and sending him back to his country, and throw him on the street.

In this case, he can go to Kyoto University School of Medicine and ask Professor Bae to take in him, a homeless little fox.

There may also be accidents.

Hua Che’s knife marks on his wrist were so deep that he even put his hand in warm water to avoid solidification.

He had fainted before the store manager broke into his room.

If it were later, or if something unexpected happened and the store manager didn’t come to him at all, he would die in his plan.

But he accepts this failed ending.

After slowing down for a long time, Hua Che moved her arm, and then she realized that there was a light sleeping person lying next to her bed.

Pei Yu was awakened by his movement and sat up straight.

They looked at each other for a few seconds, like survivors for the rest of their lives.

“How does it feel now? ”

“has been lying down for a long time and is a little uncomfortable. ”

Hua Che’s voice was a little mute. He stretched out his hand from the quilt, raised it tremblingly, and was supported by someone.

“slow down.”

Pei Yu shook the bedside high and helped Hua Che sit up.

“can you hug me? So cold. ”

Pei Yu sat next to him and took him over his waist.

He went to get the thermos cup on the bedside table with one hand and carefully took care of Hua Che to drink some warm water.

Hua Che, who had tossed around from the edge of death, seemed to be thinner, and the hospital’s hospital gown was empty on him.

He leaned against Pei Yu’s arms, his fox ears rubbing against his neck.

When he was very close to Alpha’s glands, he could smell that comfortable and reassuring smell.

Pei Yu pulled the quilt over his body and gently stroked the little fox’s head like a comfort.

He said very little, his face was very stiff, and he was obviously not sleeping well.

“Professor Pei, don’t be angry with the fox. . . . ”

Hua Che rubbed his neck and said softly, acting coquettishly.

Pei Yu has many ideals, such as that suicide will only hurt the person who loves him, and that there are other ways to take him away. . . . . .

For example, ask Hua Che why she doesn’t want to believe in herself.

But he looked at the little fox’s weak and pitiful appearance, and blinked pleasingly as he looked at himself.

The so-called anger also disappeared, and his heart full of heartache made him unable to say anything he taught.

“why is this? ”

Pei Yu asked dryly.

“If Professor Pei wants to buy Lingguan or something, I can’t imagine how much it will cost. I don’t. . . . ”

“let me hear the words ‘ is not worth it, and I will teach you a lesson. ’

Pei Yu was originally very short-lived by the little fox, but now he is even more angry when he hears this.

Hua Che smiled slightly and came over to poke Pei Yu’s tense face, looking like a very naughty child with a little provocation.

“what lesson? ”

Pei Yu held his hand, his low gaze mixed with anger, serious and dangerous.

He got closer and almost touched the tip of Hua Che’s nose.

Among many ideas, Pei Yu chose the mildest threat.

“little fox, you don’t want to be spanked by me in the hospital either, do you? ”

“you. . . . . ”

Hua Che was stunned for a moment, her bloodless face turned pink because she was shy, and her whole body shrank back a little, shaking the hospital bed until it squeaked.

“I, you, doctors cannot bully patients. ”

“you disobey first. ”

The little joke eased the atmosphere a little, and Hua Che relaxed. Her whole body rested in Pei Yu’s arms, breathing Alpha’s pheromone.

His nerves were relaxed and he felt particularly comfortable being held by a familiar person.

Pei Yu patted his waist gently, gently comforting him with a sense of security.

“little flower, can you tell me about it? ”

“Professor Pei, I have listened to every MOOC of yours. ”

His voice was low, and he gave an understated smile.

“Every lesson is well listened to and every test is taken seriously. Everything in the class is so familiar that I can almost memorize it, and every exam is close to a perfect score. ”

“There are electronic certificates at the end of the class, I print them out, stack them thick, and stack them in the cabinet. ”

Pei Yu was stunned and said nothing for a long time.

“I know I’m sick, I want help, I want to save myself, I want to live. . . . ”

Hua Che looked at the thick gauze on her wrist and said in a trance.

“the store manager is worried that we will run away and will not give us much pocket money. I have no resident status and no medical insurance, so it’s really expensive to see a doctor. ”

Hua Che lowered her head, drooped the fox’s ears, and muttered in a low voice.

“Kyoto University Hospital has a charity mental health day every year, and I will try my best to catch up on it. ”

“I am doing charity work for students from Kyoto University School of Medicine. They were very patient and very serious in prescribing medicine to me. ”

Hua Che scratched her fingers at a loss.

It didn’t feel good to analyze himself to others, not to mention that it was the first time he had told someone else his thoughts so candidly.

“Those prescription drugs are so expensive. . . . . It takes more than 300 a month. I saved up to prescribe them once, but hormone drugs have made me gain a lot of weight in a short period of time. . . . . .

“The store manager doesn’t know that I take medicine, he just knows that I have gained weight and won’t give me food. ”

“I was so hungry that I almost fainted, and I didn’t have enough money for a course of treatment, so I had to stop taking the medicine. ”

Tears fainted on the quilt drop by drop, forming deep water stains.

“I found a way to make myself feel better, which is to completely let myself go. ”

“not thinking about anything, not asking, like a doll, not wanting anything, just take a breath, eat a bite of food, and survive. ”

“I don’t know why I must survive, but if I don’t think about what it means, I can feel better. ”

Hua Che raised her head and burst into tears.

Emotionally out of control, he cried and sobbed like a child, venting his depression to the extreme, almost tearing him apart in pain.

“Professor Pei. . . . . I never, ever thought about committing suicide. . . . . . . . . . This is the first time. I really don’t know how to survive. . . . . ”

“I can’t imagine continuing to live in Lingguan, not even for a day. ”

“I want to be with you, I just want to be with you. . . . ”

He held Pei Yu’s hand so hard that he seemed to have grabbed a life-saving straw.

“I try hard to get better. ”

“If you run away, you will be caught and beaten, so I won’t run away. When you get sick, you need the store manager’s medicine to please him. If you can’t afford the medicine for mental illness, I will take free psychiatry classes. . . . ”

The sobbing was louder, and Hua Che was out of breath crying, even his voice was hoarse.

“But, why. . . . . Why is the concept of psychiatry so familiar to my heart that it doesn’t make me any better? . . . ”

“Why can’t I get better, why should I become a burden bottomless pit for you to go bankrupt for me! ”

He sat up straight from his arms, raised his chin and howled.

“Professor Pei, I feel so bad. . . . ”

Pei Yu rushed over and hugged the little fox who was crying loudly tightly in his arms.

He never thought that the free course that opened up the school’s popularity, the course that he recorded in front of the camera and in front of the air, and the course that was regarded as a burden on his studies by college students at Kyoto University School of Medicine, would really become a person at a certain moment. A life-saving straw.

Good universities have no walls.