After Saving the White Moonlight, the Black Moonlight Went Crazy - Chapter 11

Chapter 11: Don’t remember this painful feeling

◎She has the right to choose◎

Yan Sui’s body stiffened. She didn’t speak or turn around.

But the other person grabbed her shoulders and forced her to turn. Yan Sui lowered her eyes, her face still streaked with tears. Her originally slender and dense eyelashes were wet with tears and clumped together.

The words Jian Liyun wanted to say were all stuck in her throat.

And yet, in this state, Yan Sui’s first words were still—

“I’m sorry.”

Jian Liyun was an actress who could perfectly portray the joy, anger, and sadness of her characters.

She also knew that when in different emotions, the body would have corresponding and different reactions.

But now, she felt as if her heart was being fiercely grabbed by an invisible hand, unable to beat, her chest felt tight, and she was unconsciously holding her breath.

Her chest felt heavy, and her nose felt a hint of soreness, as if as long as she let her emotions continue, her eyes would also become warm and red.

Multiple emotions were about to swallow her at this moment: regret, sadness, soreness, unwillingness…

All the emotions in the end turned into two words:

Heartache.

This was the first time an emotion controlled her, rather than her actively summoning an emotion for acting.

Jian Liyun thought, Yan Sui knows nothing. She is the most innocent one. Why should I take my anger out on her?

I am the most useless, the most deserving of death, person here.

But the more she felt this way, the more Jian Liyun didn’t know how to sincerely apologize to the other person.

She could only gaze at the other person with her dark eyes, with a thousand words contained within them.

But Yan Sui didn’t make eye contact with her. She slightly tilted her head, her voice almost inaudible. “After I finish the dishes, let’s pack up and leave.”

Jian Liyun frowned slightly. “But you said before we’d stay for three days…”

“I’m sorry. It was my own willfulness, thinking this would be good for you, and I also took up your precious rest time.” Yan Sui’s voice was airy. “We should go back early and give you some real time to rest.”

Jian Liyun’s voice was hoarse. “No, that’s not what I meant… The life here is very good.”

Yan Sui paused. “Go upstairs and pack your luggage.”

Jian Liyun knew she should do something, but she didn’t know what to do. She could only stubbornly continue to hold onto the other person’s shoulders, in a silent confrontation.

Yan Sui sighed, her tone filled with undisguised fatigue. “Let go.”

Jian Liyun pursed her lips tightly. For a moment, she wanted to tell the person in front of her all the truth.

But she couldn’t. She couldn’t let Yan Sui fall into the same mud pit and struggle with her.

Maybe three seconds passed, or maybe a minute.

Jian Liyun finally spoke. She had put on the same indifferent expression Yan Sui was most familiar with.

“What just happened was my fault, Sui Sui. Let’s continue to stay here. I really like it here—”

And I really like living with you.

“I will also act well from now on and not let you down.”

Yan Sui still didn’t look at her, only hummed softly in response.

Jian Liyun finally let go. The moment she did, Yan Sui turned around and turned on the faucet to continue washing the dishes.

Yan Sui washed the dishes, and Jian Liyun didn’t leave. She just watched from the side.

Until Yan Sui finished the dishes, Jian Liyun was still standing there like a statue.

Yan Sui’s voice was a little hoarse. “I’m going upstairs to take a nap.”

Jian Liyun looked at the other person. “…Okay.”

Yan Sui went upstairs with a blank expression—

Her blank expression was different from Jian Liyun’s. There was no coldness, only numbness.

How could Jian Liyun not have noticed the other person’s change? But she knew that no matter what she did now to make up for it, it would be useless.

Yan Sui returned to her bedroom and closed the door.

She leaned her back against the cold wall and called out to the system in her heart.

“System.”

“I’m here, Host. Don’t be angry, Host. The supporting female lead is just blinded by the male lead right now. Later on…”

“I don’t want to do this mission anymore.”

“Don’t be discouraged, Host. This is only temporary.”

The system’s comfort didn’t work. Yan Sui continued on her own. “The mission says to save the supporting female lead, but maybe she doesn’t need to be saved at all.”

“In this novel, Lu Shutian and He Chenyu are the main characters of this world. So there’s actually a lot of information about Jian Liyun that the book didn’t describe, and I have no way of knowing it.”

Yan Sui felt her body go limp, and the familiar feeling of losing control of her body came over her again.

Her body fell downward. She knelt on the floor, leaning against the wall. She had no strength at all, and her hands just hung limply—

She didn’t even have the strength to hug herself.

“What’s wrong, Host, woo woo? Don’t scare me. If you’re not feeling well, go find the supporting female lead for help. I can’t help you right now…”

Yan Sui completely ignored the system and continued. “After I came to this world, I realized that everyone here is a real, living, breathing person. Everyone’s actions have a logical reason. So there must be a reason for Jian Liyun being so dependent and fawning on the male lead. The novel just didn’t mention it.”

“From the perspective of the novel, the male lead did betray her. But maybe in places we don’t know about, the male lead was kind to her, or maybe the male lead has a shining quality that she admires and loves, which is why she’s willing to do anything to help him.”

The system wanted to explain, but then it heard Yan Sui’s sigh in her heart.

“Jian Liyun is very clear-headed. She has her reasons for doing what she’s doing. She’s just not willing to tell me, and I don’t need to force her anymore. We’re acting as if we’re saving her from a high pedestal, but in reality, we’re forcing her to do something she doesn’t like…”

Yan Sui closed her eyes.

“That’s too much.”

A deep sense of guilt and sadness welled up in her heart, but Yan Sui couldn’t shed a single tear.

“I once hated and despised people like this the most. I never thought I would become one of them someday.”

“Host…”

Even sitting was making Yan Sui tired. She simply lay down on the floor. Her cheek against the cold floor felt inexplicably comfortable.

The system felt it should do something.

“Host, the male lead is not a good match for the supporting female lead. We’re saving her by doing this…”

“But Jian Liyun still has the right to choose. Whether the male lead chooses her or not, she has the right to choose to go to the male lead.”

“I cannot and will not deprive her of that right.”

“But Host, if you don’t stop the supporting female lead from getting close to the male lead, she will still die in the end. Your mission will fail, and you won’t be able to return to your original world, or know what that sentence was.”

Yan Sui opened her eyes, her gaze blank.

“If the mission fails, it fails. I really want to know what that sentence was, but I can’t do it by taking away an innocent person’s right to be happy.”

She felt like she sighed again.

“I will not stop Jian Liyun from pursuing the male lead. But before that, I will find a psychologist for her, take her for regular check-ups, and take her to meet those directors and get good scripts.”

“If, even when she’s healthy and her career is going smoothly, she still chooses to firmly follow the male lead, then I…”

A knock on the door suddenly interrupted Yan Sui’s thoughts.

Through the wooden door, Jian Liyun’s voice, which was usually as cold as ice, was now a little muffled.

“Sui Sui, are you asleep?”

Yan Sui’s pink lips parted slightly, but only a breath came out.

She was so tired that she couldn’t even make a sound.

So she just gave up and continued to lie on the floor, not speaking.

Anyway, Jian Liyun would probably leave if she didn’t get a response.

The system also asked at an appropriate time, “Host, how long are you going to lie on the floor? You’ll catch a cold.”

Yan Sui responded in her heart. “I have no strength right now. I need to rest for a bit.”

She was all too familiar with this feeling she would get during one of her episodes. But precisely because she was so familiar with it, she knew she could get through it on her own in the end.

Creak—

“Oh my God, why did the supporting female lead just open the door and come in? Host, get up quickly!”

Yan Sui’s pupils constricted, but her body was too stiff to make any movements.

Jian Liyun pushed the door open, her gaze immediately locking onto the large bed, but the bed was empty.

Out of the corner of her eye, she saw a lump of something curled up in the corner.

She turned her head and saw Yan Sui on the floor.

Before her brain could even react, Jian Liyun’s body had already moved.

She immediately knelt down on both knees and swiftly and gently put her arms around the other person’s shoulders, letting Yan Sui lie in her embrace.

“Where does it hurt?”

Yan Sui’s voice was almost forced out of her throat. “I’m fine.”

Jian Liyun’s voice was trembling, and the corners of her eyes were tinged with a faint redness, but she still tried to stay calm.

“I’ll call an ambulance right away.”

Yan Sui sat up from Jian Liyun’s embrace. She supported herself on the floor with her hands, her slender wrists trembling non-stop.

Forcibly pulling herself out of this near-rigid state was truly painful. Fortunately, Yan Sui was very good at burying her pain deep inside.

She lowered her head, looking at the floor, and took several deep breaths. Her back was covered in a cold sweat. Only then did she slowly raise her head.

“I’m really fine. I just… felt that the floor was cool, and it was comfortable to lie on.”

Yan Sui’s excuse was terribly lame, and Jian Liyun had no intention of believing her.

“Can you stand up?” Jian Liyun asked.

Before Yan Sui could answer, the other person simply picked her up and placed her on the bed.

“You sleep for a bit. We’ll go back after you’ve rested.”

Yan Sui thought Jian Liyun was unwilling to stay here. She was stunned for a moment, then nodded. “Okay.”

Jian Liyun pulled the blanket over Yan Sui, then pulled the blackout curtains closed. The room immediately became a lot darker.

The cold beauty sat on the edge of the bed, her voice incredibly gentle. “Sleep.”

After the stress reaction subsided, all that was left was endless fatigue.

Yan Sui’s eyelids were drooping, but she stretched out a hand from under the blanket.

A cold hand quickly held hers. Jian Liyun leaned in and said, “What’s wrong? Do you want some water?”

Because of the sleepiness, Yan Sui’s words were slurred. “I’m really sorry about what happened earlier.”

Yan Sui’s eyes were closed, so she didn’t see the expression on Jian Liyun’s face, which was one of—

Struggle and pain.

If she could go back in time, Jian Liyun swore she would never have yelled at Yan Sui just now.

She scratched Yan Sui’s palm. “I don’t mind at all, Sui Sui.”

I just beg you not to hate me because of this.