Being a Tutor to a Rich, Psychopathic Young Lady - Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Shi Mingyue couldn’t remember at all when she had started this relationship. She kept trying to piece things together but still couldn’t find any trace of a relationship.

But, Xiao Dengqu was indeed very happy recently. She even made her snowflake pastries by hand… It seemed a little bit like it. Maybe because it was her first relationship, it wasn’t very obvious. Xiao Dengqu was passionately in love by herself and didn’t think there was anything wrong with it.

Xiao Dengqu: I already accepted your pursuit.

“Didn’t you know?”

Shi Mingyue’s Chinese was pretty good, but now she was dizzy from reading the words: But I never pursued you.

Xiao Dengqu: You wrote me a letter, sent me flowers, and even confessed to me.

Shi Mingyue: You misunderstood.

Xiao Dengqu: Huh?

“Okay, okay, you didn’t pursue me. We’re going in both directions.”

Shi Mingyue: Why do you think we’re in a relationship?

Xiao Dengqu: Huh? Aren’t we?

Shi Mingyue asked: Is it because of that card?

Xiao Dengqu didn’t reply. Shi Mingyue continued typing: That card wasn’t written by me. I only left my name. That was the message the florist wrote.

There was no reply. Shi Mingyue continued to type: If you don’t believe me, I can go find the florist and ask. I should be able to find her.

Shi Mingyue hadn’t added her WeChat at the time. She thought she could find her on Meituan or Xiaohongshu. She immediately opened the other two apps to search.

Xiao Dengqu: Did you send the flowers?

Shi Mingyue: Yes.

Xiao Dengqu: As long as you sent the flowers, it’s fine. Okay, let’s continue our relationship.

Shi Mingyue: Sending flowers doesn’t mean we’re in a relationship. I just wanted to send them to you and make you happy.

Xiao Dengqu: Then why did you want to send them to me and make me happy?

Xiao Dengqu’s question caught Shi Mingyue off guard. The reasoning was very simple, but when she delved into it, Xiao Dengqu’s question left her confused.

Shi Mingyue thought for a long time: It’s a psychological behavior. We have a good relationship.

Xiao Dengqu: Yes, we’re a couple.

Shi Mingyue: Just a teacher-student relationship.

Xiao Dengqu: We’re dating.

Shi Mingyue: We’re really not.

Xiao Dengqu: Why? Then what was our sweetness for these past few days? Okay, I’m not mad at you anymore. Let’s continue our relationship.

Shi Mingyue: It’s a teacher-student relationship.

“Xiaoqu, a relationship isn’t like this. It’s not a relationship just because someone sends you flowers. At the very least, two people have to love each other and have feelings for each other.”

Given Shi Mingyue’s current situation, she didn’t have the energy to be in a relationship. She wasn’t interested in things like that at all.

Shi Mingyue typed again: If I caused a misunderstanding, I’m very sorry. I apologize.

She sent the message and waited for a response. There was no “is typing” status from the other side, and Shi Mingyue’s heart also slowed down a few beats. She felt a little anxious.

A few minutes later, there was a knock on the door. It wasn’t loud. Shi Mingyue instinctively didn’t dare to open the door. She felt that the person outside was a human disguised as a demon and that she would be eaten if she opened the door.

She didn’t dare to make a sound. The knocking continued outside.

Shi Mingyue guessed that it was Xiao Dengqu outside.

After a while, a voice sounded outside. The housekeeper said, “Teacher Shi, open the door. I need to talk to you.”

Shi Mingyue opened her mouth but didn’t make a sound. She felt even more scared.

The housekeeper continued, “I need to talk to you.”

Shi Mingyue turned to get out of bed.

Then she felt that it was wrong. It was too much like opening the door for a wolf. She would be eaten.

The housekeeper’s tone was clearly sleepy. The housekeeper had a habit of not staying up late, and there was nothing so important that she had to say it now.

After thinking, Shi Mingyue used her phone to make a voice call. The sound immediately rang out from outside the door. The call was quickly hung up.

Now that she was found out, Xiao Dengqu spoke up. “Huh? Does the teacher not want to make things clear?”

Shi Mingyue’s breathing became cautious. She said, “How about we talk about it tomorrow during the day? It’s getting late.”

Besides, it wasn’t good for the housekeeper to know about this. Shi Mingyue said, “Tell the housekeeper to go to bed.”

After a few seconds, Xiao Dengqu’s tone became very obedient. She said, “Okay, I told the housekeeper to leave. Mm-hmm, let’s have a good talk. Don’t we need to resolve misunderstandings?”

Shi Mingyue tapped her foot on the floor. She still felt that she couldn’t open the door. She said, “But it’s already very late. Can we talk about it tomorrow?”

“But I can’t sleep, teacher. What are you worried about?” Xiao Dengqu said.

Shi Mingyue pinched her fingers hard. She was mainly a little afraid of Xiao Dengqu. She tried to make her tone firm. “Let’s talk about it tomorrow.”

There was no sound from outside. Shi Mingyue guessed that Xiao Dengqu hadn’t left yet. Xiao Dengqu was probably staring at the door.

Xiao Dengqu’s temper couldn’t be this good.

Indeed.

Xiao Dengqu wanted to chisel through the door and walk up to Shi Mingyue and ask her, “Mm-hmm, why did the teacher want to break up? Why did she say there was no relationship?”

She was so angry and so unwilling. She would force her to ask. The teacher would definitely back down. Then she would force the teacher against the wall. Then the teacher wouldn’t be able to escape. She would kiss the teacher’s lips and ask her if she wanted to break up. If the teacher said yes, she would kiss her until she said no.

She would probably kiss her lips raw and kiss her lips until they were swollen. But what else could she do? It made her so uncomfortable to hear the teacher say there was no relationship. Her heart felt strange.

Her heart and brain kept asking her, “Why, Xiao Dengqu? Why doesn’t it count as a relationship?”

Shi Mingyue still didn’t open the door. She typed: [Xiaoqu, you don’t have any friends, do you? Can we just be good friends first? You were misled by the card before, and you don’t really have romantic feelings for me…] She couldn’t figure out what else to say and didn’t send the message for the time being.

Xiao Dengqu didn’t reply to her. The feeling from outside the door also didn’t go away. Shi Mingyue was very afraid that Xiao Dengqu would cry. After all, she was young and this was the first time she had experienced something like a relationship. She probably wouldn’t be able to handle it.

Shi Mingyue reread the message she sent. It seemed like she didn’t consider Xiao Dengqu’s feelings.

She edited a new message and sent it. She said that it wasn’t Xiao Dengqu’s fault and that the card was indeed misleading. She was deeply sorry.

Still no reply.

Shi Mingyue naturally felt bad. They had a good relationship. It wasn’t worth it to ruin it over something like this.

After she had experienced Cheng Jin’s confession, as soon as Shi Mingyue rejected Cheng Jin, their friendship ended. Shi Mingyue struggled in this state for a long time before she got used to it.

There was no sound from outside. Shi Mingyue held her phone without making a sound. Time passed quickly. She clicked on her photo album and saw the side profile of Xiao Dengqu that she took on their first flight.

She opened Xiao Dengqu’s handwritten letter. Xiao Dengqu wrote the letter seriously, and her words were full of joy. When Shi Mingyue gave her flowers and saw her happy, at that moment, she was also very happy.

But… this wasn’t love.

Shi Mingyue let out a heavy breath. She reflected on whether her actions were wrong. Indeed, she thought that she was more at fault. She didn’t establish boundaries well, which led to Xiao Dengqu’s misunderstanding.

It was 2:30 in the morning, and Shi Mingyue wasn’t sleepy at all.

She could also feel that Xiao Dengqu was still at the door.

…

Shi Mingyue didn’t sleep all night. When she got up, her heart ached. Yesterday, the doctor told her to not stay up late, but she had immediately ignored it.

Shi Mingyue went to wash her face and brush her teeth. She cautiously went to open the door.

When the door opened, Xiao Dengqu was sitting on the floor in front of it, with her head resting on her arms. Shi Mingyue was mentally prepared but was still stunned for a few seconds.

Xiao Dengqu had been very sleepy yesterday during the day. Now she was groggy, holding a blanket, and resting her head on her arms. Shi Mingyue felt a little sorry for her. After all, the young lady had only ever slept on a soft bed.

Shi Mingyue squatted down and patted her on the shoulder, telling her to go back to her room and sleep.

After Xiao Dengqu was awake for a few seconds, she hooked her arms around Shi Mingyue’s neck. Shi Mingyue groaned. She put her hands on the wall and stood up. Xiao Dengqu, hanging from her neck, also stood up. Xiao Dengqu said, “I’m not going back.”

Shi Mingyue said, “It’s already morning.”

Xiao Dengqu finally came to her senses.

Xiao Dengqu looked at the blanket on the floor.

The maid who came every morning to serve Xiao Dengqu was standing at the end of the hallway, staring blankly at them. Xiao Dengqu glared fiercely at the maid.

Xiao Dengqu let go of her arms, picked up the blanket, and walked toward her room. She lowered her head and sniffed the blanket. Her whole body was gloomy, which made Shi Mingyue’s heart ache again.

Shi Mingyue rubbed her heart and went to the dining room on the first floor. When Xiao Dengqu came down, she was wearing a black dress. She sat next to Shi Mingyue with a sullen face. The maids serving them could all tell that they were having a fight.

A maid went to hint to the housekeeper. The housekeeper was used to it and said, “They’ll make up soon. It’s nothing.”

The maid was very anxious. “Oh, it’s not the same kind of making up as before.”

The housekeeper said, “The content of their arguments is different every day.”

The maid whispered, “Seriously, it’s not what you think,” The housekeeper looked at the two who went to class one after the other after finishing their meal and said tiredly, “See? Didn’t they make up?”

But don’t cause so much trouble next time. She couldn’t handle it.

Even though the two of them were facing a relationship problem, they still had to go to class.

On the table were the finished dried roses. The fragrance was still there. Shi Mingyue looked away. Xiao Dengqu was staring at her with a sullen look. Shi Mingyue was sitting opposite her. Xiao Dengqu said in a sinister tone, “The teacher still has to teach me.”

Shi Mingyue flipped to the back of her physics book and said, “Page 68.”

Xiao Dengqu didn’t move. Shi Mingyue started the class by herself. Xiao Dengqu said, “Teacher, you secretly put a blanket on me yesterday. Why do you have to say we’re breaking up?”

Shi Mingyue said, “Okay, class has started.”

Xiao Dengqu put her arms on her textbook and rested her chin on her palm. “What if I don’t study, teacher? What are you going to do?”

Shi Mingyue said, “Then you’re being a little childish. A relationship can’t be mixed up with this. Besides, we’re not in a relationship.”

“We are,” Xiao Dengqu said.

Shi Mingyue said, “Option B: Since P’s gravity doesn’t change and the incline angle of the slope doesn’t change, the component of gravity perpendicular to the slope, which is the pressure, also doesn’t change…”

After she finished explaining the question, Xiao Dengqu chose a new option. Xiao Dengqu said coldly, “I don’t agree to break up.”

Shi Mingyue was silent. After a long time, she said, “You misunderstood. We were never in a relationship.”

“I don’t believe you,” Xiao Dengqu said stubbornly. “We are. You said I was your lover, and I agreed. You just said you wanted to break up. I’m not mad at you and I forgive you. Now we’re still in a relationship.”

“…”

Shi Mingyue had a headache and felt helpless. “We have a teacher-student relationship. There are no romantic feelings between us. Don’t overthink it.”

Xiao Dengqu stared at her, pursing her lips tightly. “I’m mad now.”

Being mad was useless. Shi Mingyue still wanted to clarify the card. Xiao Dengqu said, “But the flowers were from you. You sent me flowers.”

“Sending flowers doesn’t mean we’re in a relationship.”

“Then are you in a relationship with me now?”

“No.”

“Good. We haven’t broken up.”

Shi Mingyue was helpless. Xiao Dengqu said, “Wifey.”

“…” Shi Mingyue was too shocked by her words. No, she didn’t even call her girlfriend or lover. This jump was too big.

A maid came to bring them a fruit platter. She kept hearing Xiao Dengqu ask, “Are we dating?” and “We haven’t broken up.” Anyway, as long as Shi Mingyue wasn’t dating her, they hadn’t broken up. The young lady was like a parrot.

Xiao Dengqu looked at Shi Mingyue seriously. Shi Mingyue’s fair face had very dark circles under her eyes. She must not have slept well yesterday.

Shi Mingyue had a headache from her calling her that. She kept resting her chin on her hand.

Xiao Dengqu turned her head and looked at the sky outside.

The clouds today were as white as ever, floating leisurely in the sky. They had no idea how sad and heartbroken she was.

Oh, so this feeling was called heartbreak.

I’m going to hate the clouds. They made me unhappy and heartbroken.

“If you have to be in a relationship with me, then it might be…” Shi Mingyue thought for a long time and said, “A forced love.”

“That’s also love,” Xiao Dengqu said.

Shi Mingyue didn’t think Xiao Dengqu liked her. Maybe her liking for her wasn’t even as much as Cheng Jin’s. It was more like a sense of possessiveness. When she found that she was losing control, she was eager to hold on tight.

“You have to be in a relationship with me,” Xiao Dengqu said seriously.

Shi Mingyue couldn’t argue with her and said, “You study first. We can talk about this after you finish studying, okay?”

Xiao Dengqu stared at the book. She was very uncomfortable and wanted to tear the book. Shi Mingyue said a lot of things, but she didn’t hear a single word.

Xiao Dengqu asked, “If you’re not in a relationship with me, who will you be in a relationship with?”

Shi Mingyue said, “I have no intention of being in a relationship right now.”

“What about in the future?” Xiao Dengqu said.

Shi Mingyue said, “In the future, I haven’t thought about it.” Because of her mother’s failed marriage, she had no thoughts about marriage. “I just want to live my own life.”

She also wanted to say, “How old are you? You don’t understand love either.”

But she thought about it. Xiao Dengqu was already 18. She could have feelings and like other people. She could be said to understand love.

Shi Mingyue continued to teach. Whether she listened or not, Xiao Dengqu would have to listen twice if she didn’t get it.

They taught until noon, and the two of them ate lunch together. They went upstairs together. Xiao Dengqu followed behind her. Shi Mingyue was prepared for her to stick to her, but Xiao Dengqu turned and left.

Shi Mingyue was stunned for a few seconds. She pushed the door open and went in.

Back in her room, Shi Mingyue leaned against the wall and gasped for air. She went and drank a glass of water.

After that, Shi Mingyue read the letter Xiao Dengqu wrote again. She sent a message to the housekeeper and said she wanted to go out and buy some things.

The housekeeper replied: What time? Is the young lady going too?

Shi Mingyue: I’ll be back after I buy them.

Housekeeper: You can have the driver do it. There’s someone in the house who specializes in buying things.

Shi Mingyue: Did Xiao Dengqu come looking for you yesterday?

Housekeeper: Mm, she came to find me and said she was about to die. She asked me to come down and find you.

Of course, the housekeeper was very confused. At that time, she was very sleepy. With her eyes half-closed, it was the first time she saw Xiao Dengqu with that kind of emotion. She looked like she was about to cry, her eyes were dull, and she was in painful distress. Xiao Dengqu didn’t know what was wrong with her. She felt that she could only live if she saw Shi Mingyue.

Shi Mingyue: I’m not going out.

The message on the card wasn’t written by Shi Mingyue, but Xiao Dengqu had seriously replied to her letter.

Shi Mingyue wouldn’t write those kinds of romantic sentences. When she was very, very young, so long ago that she forgot what grade she was in, the school would give every student an envelope and ask them to write a letter.

At that time, Shi Mingyue wrote a letter to her mother, telling her not to cry and not to wait for her to grow up. She said that they should take her sister and go to a very, very distant place, far away from her father.

The letters were all collected by the teacher. She looked forward to her mom receiving the letter every day and hoped to touch her mom, but her mom never packed a suitcase. She thought she had written the wrong zip code. One day, when she was about to forget about it, she saw the letter in the small basket under the TV cabinet. The letter had already been opened, but she didn’t get any response.

Shi Mingyue was too young. She couldn’t process her feelings at the time. She only knew that she was very sad, and tears kept falling. She kept wiping her tears. That was the first time she knew that tears were very salty, saltier than table salt. She was afraid of making others feel uncomfortable, so she washed her face several times that day before helping her mom string the rest of the fried skewers.

Shi Mingyue held her pen. She didn’t understand love, so she read a few essays and posts about love and watched many popular videos about modern love. She tried to understand how people who don’t understand love and crave love should find a partner.

As she read, she summarized a few points. People like her couldn’t be in a relationship. They weren’t suitable for it.

1: She had a strong avoidant attachment style. It was a type of avoidant attachment, making it difficult for her to give others a normal love life and making her unreliable.

2: She didn’t believe in love. Her plans only included herself. Due to her personality, she was habitually cold, which was a form of emotional abuse.

3: In a modern context, it’s about being well-matched. She didn’t come from a good family, and her family was a mess. Being with her would mean hardship, and she couldn’t give others happiness. She would be a burden to others. She couldn’t heal herself, so she couldn’t heal a relationship and couldn’t give a lover good emotional value.

Every point was a fatal flaw. Whoever was in a relationship with her would be unlucky. Shi Mingyue didn’t feel regret. Instead, she felt lucky. When she was confused about whether to run toward a realistic future or stop to enjoy love, she was diagnosed with the terminal illness of not needing or being suitable for love.

Shi Mingyue took notes, trying to find the correct and healthy way to have a relationship and give the confused Xiao Dengqu a good lesson.

She wrote until she was sleepy, and her heart couldn’t take it anymore. She lay down on her desk to sleep.

Xiao Dengqu went back to her room but didn’t sleep. She came out a few times. The door next door was always closed. She didn’t go over to knock on the door.

She just didn’t know what to do. She sat on her bed and sent a message to Shi Fanxing: I got dumped.

Shi Fanxing had just gotten off work. She was about to call her sister. She: !

“When did you start dating?”

Xiao Dengqu: A week ago.

Shi Fanxing was shocked. A week ago, Xiao Dengqu was still traveling with her sister. How could she have been dumped? She asked: Who? Why would he break up with you? Did you meet him while you were traveling? You’re so pretty, generous, and have a good personality. Is he blind? I’m so done!

Xiao Dengqu: Don’t say she’s blind.

Shi Fanxing reluctantly deleted the sentence, “Are you a simp?” She replied: Okay, if you broke up, then you broke up. The next one will be better.

Xiao Dengqu: I don’t agree to break up.

Shi Fanxing thought to herself, “My sister’s worries were not for nothing. After Xiao Dengqu was bitten by the dog, she really did get sick. She became a simp!”

Xiao Dengqu: Otherwise, what was all that sweetness for these past few days?

Shi Fanxing: Do you want a high emotional intelligence answer or a low emotional intelligence answer?

Xiao Dengqu: Both.

Shi Fanxing: High emotional intelligence: It was a learning experience.

Low emotional intelligence: You were just making things up in your head.

Xiao Dengqu didn’t reply. She felt that Shi Fanxing was cursing at her.

Shi Fanxing felt that she was a little off. It seemed like she couldn’t handle the blow of being dumped. She: [Why don’t you ask my sister? Don’t think about doing anything stupid.]

She really wanted to report to her sister that Xiao Dengqu might have been tricked by a scumbag and have her sister care about Xiao Dengqu and help her establish a healthy view of love. But Xiao Dengqu said not to bother her sister.

Sigh, what a headache.

Shi Fanxing: [If you really like her, go after her.]

When it was time for class, Shi Mingyue still hadn’t come over. The maid came to bring a fruit platter and listened to the young lady sitting on the bed and talking to herself.

“This is so uncomfortable. Why? Why?”

She hated this feeling very much. She said seriously, “Why don’t we lock the teacher up? That way, she won’t be in a relationship with anyone else and can be with me every day.”

“This is really too annoying. How could she do this?” Xiao Dengqu’s heart was a mess. How could the teacher do this? They were clearly in a relationship, but now she wanted to break up.

She asked the maid, “We’re very happy, right?”

The maid was holding the tray and didn’t know how to reply.

Shi Mingyue woke up at 3:30. She groggily looked at the time and scrambled to get up to go teach Xiao Dengqu.

She saw Xiao Dengqu sitting on the side of the bed, looking at her with a scrutinizing gaze, as if she was figuring out how to eat her. Shi Mingyue thought she was dreaming. She pinched the bridge of her nose and rested her chin on her hand.

After a while, when she was more awake, Shi Mingyue washed her face. She had just sat down at her desk, ready to have a good talk with Xiao Dengqu, when Xiao Dengqu sat on her lap without giving her a chance to react.

Shi Mingyue sighed. “Get down.”

Xiao Dengqu didn’t get down.

“Don’t break up,” Xiao Dengqu said seriously. She pouted her lips. “I’m so sad, teacher. Don’t break up, okay? I’ll cry if you break up.”

Shi Mingyue helplessly swallowed the words “we’re not dating” that were in her throat. “Xiao Dengqu, you don’t understand…”

Xiao Dengqu pressed her lips against her and kissed her. Shi Mingyue was silent for two seconds and reached out to push her. Xiao Dengqu, who had just said she would cry, showed her little fangs and bit Shi Mingyue’s lips.

How cunning.

After Xiao Dengqu pulled away, their lips were still connected by a wet string. Shi Mingyue’s chest was rising and falling, and the corners of her eyes were a little wet.

She was a little afraid of Xiao Dengqu’s gaze. Xiao Dengqu was very stubborn and particularly difficult to deal with. Xiao Dengqu suddenly asked, “Then if you’re not in a relationship with me, who are you in a relationship with?”

“Cousin Cheng Jin?”

“Or those gorillas at your school?”

“Neither.”

Xiao Dengqu still didn’t like this answer. She kissed Shi Mingyue’s lips again. Shi Mingyue pushed her, and she kept kissing. Xiao Dengqu put her fingers on Shi Mingyue’s chest and felt her heart beating very fast. She said, “Your heart is pounding. You’ve fallen for me.”

“That’s because… I haven’t been sleeping well.”

Xiao Dengqu: “I let you sleep at noon. I’m not letting you sleep now.” She kissed her again, domineeringly pushing Shi Mingyue’s lips apart, eager to prove something. Prove what?

She wasn’t sure. She just wanted to do this.

She wanted to have more intimate contact. The teacher’s lips were so delicious. She could never give them to anyone else. They were hers. The teacher was hers.

The chair couldn’t bear the two of them moving around and slid backward. Shi Mingyue’s body was about to fall back. Xiao Dengqu hugged her waist tightly. “Teacher, it must be because you haven’t slept with me. That day, you touched me and I had s3x dreams. You don’t have love, so you don’t know what it feels like… so you don’t know that you want to be in a relationship with me.”

“This is different…” Shi Mingyue’s ears were burning from her blunt words.

At this moment, the door opened, and the wind rushed in from outside. The housekeeper came in and saw them kissing. She was stunned. She backed out of the room. A few minutes later, she opened the door again, and the scene inside the room still hadn’t changed.

“?”