For The Sake Of Your Smile - Chapter 2

It felt like a dream.

On the beach, Suzuka walked clumsily over the rocks, telling him to wait. Koji lit a cigarette and waited for her, exhaling white smoke.

The satisfaction of sharing his favorite place with someone was beyond what his vocabulary could express.

When the sunset colored the city, the car quietly stopped in front of the El café.

The enjoyable day was coming to an end, and the car was wrapped in silence.

“T-today…”

Koji began to speak.

“I had fun…”

Suzuka nodded.

“Well then… you have work starting tomorrow, right? You should head home soon.”

Hearing those words, Suzuka looked down and shook her head.

“C-come on, don’t make a fuss… I’ll drive you at least part of the way.”

“Koji-san…”

“W-What is it?”

“It’s a lie… I’m not working…”

“I-I see… So, what are you doing then?”

“Nothing…”

After saying that, Suzuka fell silent.

Again, a heavy silence surrounded the two of them.

“T-then… how about this? How about coming to my house now?”

“Eh?”

Suzuka lifted her head.

“A-as you can tell, I’m living alone, so it’s a bit messy… b-but what do you think?”

“I’ll go!”

“It’s decided!”

Koji quickly shifted the gear into drive.

“Welcome to the Suwazaki residence.”

Koji got out of the car and exaggeratedly bowed while saying that.

After passing through a narrow path, a three-story Western-style house stood, with no other homes in sight.

“It’s beautiful… You have such a large garden with flowers blooming… Koji, do you like working with soil?”

“Yeah, a little… Well, let’s go inside.”

Inside, a large room that seemed perfect for a small party welcomed them.

“The inside is lovely too.”

Koji scratched his head, looking embarrassed.

It was then.

A small breed dog came running from the back. Koji bent down to greet it.

“So cute!”

Suzuka couldn’t help but speak out.

“Koji-san, you really have a pure heart. Even this little puppy adores you… What’s its name?”

“A-ah, it’s Sora.”

“Good evening, Sora-chan.”

Saying that, Suzuka gently stroked Sora’s head.

“Well… I invited you, but we’ve already had dinner… what should we do now?”

“It’s fine. Just being here with you, Koji-san, is enough.”

Saying that, Suzuka started walking across the hall.

“Eh……?”

Suzuka’s gaze stopped at one point.

“W-What’s wrong?”

A small bird flew from the direction Suzuka pointed and landed on Koji’s shoulder.

“I’m home, Eri.”

The bird, named Eri, chirped. Looking closely, there were dozens of small birds free-roaming inside the house.

The birds chirped and gathered around Koji.

Suzuka, amazed by the sight, spoke with admiration.

“… Is this also something you did, Koji-san?”

“Y-yeah. I live alone, so it’s lonely… When I’m with them, how should I put it… It calms my heart… And the birds and dogs…”

“What?”

“… E-even a man as ugly as me, if I show them affection, they return it… and that makes me happy.”

“When you say ‘ugly,’ are you talking about yourself Koji-san? You’re being too hard on yourself.”

She said that, blushed and then looked up at Koji with a flirtatious gaze.

“In fact, I’m already attracted to you, Koji-san.”

Koji’s heartbeat started to race once more.

It’s hard to believe there’s a woman in my house, let alone that she has feelings for me.

“Koji-san, you’re wonderful. You’re quite different from the image I had in mind.”

“M-My image? What kind of image did you have of me?”

“The Sensei I envisioned was someone battling loneliness, silently typing away at the computer. A solitary person who gave up all happiness to create masterpieces.”

“Did I disappoint you?”

“No. I like you even more now.”

At those words, Koji blushed.

“Hey, Sensei. Where’s your workspace?”

“Ah, yeah. It’s the study on the second floor.”

“Can I see it?”

“Of course.”

Suzuka followed Koji upstairs.

“Wow, that’s a lot of books.”

The study was a Western-style room about 20 tatami mats in size. From the entrance, bookshelves stretched across three walls, filled with books of all genres.

“This is the study of Hazaki Sensei…”

Saying that, she gently ran her fingers over the computer on the desk.

“Sensei, when is your next work coming out?”

He hesitated for a moment at the question but then smiled broadly and took a memory stick out of his pocket.

“Here it is.”

“Wow. You’ve already finished it.”

“Y-yeah.”

“I’m looking forward to it.”

“I-I don’t know, but listening to you…”

“Yes. I’ve read all of your works, Hazaki Sensei. I’m a fan.”

Unlike when I first debuted, now I’m treated carelessly by publishers. My works don’t get any support, and I’ve been questioning my own worth.

But this woman in front of me right now said she liked my works. It felt like all my efforts had finally paid off.

“Do you drink?”

“Yes. Do you have red wine?”

“T-then… how about we make a toast together?”

“What are we toasting to?”

“To… our fateful… encounter…”

That night.

After taking a shower, Koji sat on the bed, and in front of him, Suzuka took off her gown.

Suzuka’s cheeks blushed faintly as Koji held his breath.

His hands trembled at the sight of her stunning naked form, and his throat was dry as dust.

“Koji-san…….”

Suzuka wrapped her arms around Koji’s neck and closed her eyes. His heart nearly stopped as he felt her breath so close.

Her small lips were right in front of him, and he felt as though they were saying, “I’m yours.”

Koji steeled himself and placed his hand on Suzuka’s delicate shoulder.

But no matter what, he couldn’t move any further.

Koji’s mind was flooded with memories he wished he could forget.

Just once. He went to buy a woman.

Koji, who had never been with a woman or even touched one, went to a brothel one time, crushed by loneliness.

His first woman. Even though their relationship was based on money, Koji’s heart soared.

However.

When the woman leaned in to kiss him.

As he closed his trembling eyelids.

He saw it.

The face of the woman was filled with disgust.

That is the nature of the job. There are times when you have to entertain customers you don’t want to. You have to kiss those men, intertwine your tongues, and suck on their dicks.

Yet, as part of their job, as professionals, they serve the men with the goal of satisfying them, their faces adorned with a sensual smile.

Even a professional like her doesn’t want to kiss me. The moment he thought that, his excitement and arousal quickly withered away.

――Tears welled up inside me. I felt like I wanted to die.

Koji interrupted the kiss, paid the fee, and left the place.

The memory from that moment came flooding back.

Tears began to overflow from Koji’s eyes.

“Why… why are you crying…?”

“I’m sorry… I know you don’t hate me, Suzuka… but… you don’t have to force yourself…”

“…What do you mean?”

“…I know, I understand… t-that you hate seeing or even touching such an ugly man like me…”

“……”

His voice trembled. Koji’s tears wouldn’t stop.

Suzuka gazed at Koji and placed her hand on his cheek.

“Look at me, Koji-san.”

“……”

“I can feel how much you’ve suffered, Koji-san… and to think such things in front of me, someone who wants to love you… I don’t know what to say to you… I’m sorry.”

“Suzuka, there’s nothing you need to apologize for! It’s my ugly self that’s to blame!”

“Please… don’t say things like that…”

“…Suzuka is kind. I know you don’t think that. I believe it. But even so… it’s the truth that I’m ugly…”

“Koji-san.”

“……”

“Look at me. Look closely.”

“……”

At Suzuka’s voice, I lifted my head, and I was shocked.

Her eyes were also wet with tears.

“Why are you…?”

“Because I’m… in pain too…”

“Suzuka…”

Suzuka ran her finger along her lips.

“What… do you think of my lips?”

“… T-they’re beautiful… really beautiful…”

“These lips belong to Koji-san.”

Saying that, she took Koji’s hand and gently placed it on her breasts.

The soft sensation made his consciousness feel like it was about to slip away.

“This too… belongs to Koji-san.”

“Suzuka…”

Still vibrant and fresh.

Her chest, not yet fully developed.

It seemed like a fruit of paradise, pure and untainted.

“I… I don’t have the right to do that… just looking at you like this would taint you…”

He looked away and tried to lower his head. Suzuka gently placed her hand on Koji’s cheek and softly kissed him.

“… Suzuka…”

“All of me… belongs to Koji-san.”

His first kiss. The warmth it brought.

Koji’s reason shattered.

He couldn’t resist.

“Suzuka…!”

He couldn’t stop crying.

What are these tears?

Are they tears of joy?

He didn’t even understand it himself.

Lost in the moment, he pressed his lips against hers, prying open her lips and entwining their tongues.

Suzuka welcomed him, hugging Koji tightly with all her might.

“I’m so happy, so happy… Koji-san…”

From Suzuka’s mouth, a soft, sensual breath escaped.

“More… love me more… carve your love into my heart…”

Suzuka’s whisper made his brain tingle with pleasure.

He wanted to satisfy her, to make her feel more pleasure and happiness. With that thought, he hungrily explored Suzuka’s body.

However.

Just as he was about to bring their bodies together, Koji realized something was wrong.

His cock had shriveled up, becoming a completely useless thing.

He panicked at the reality of the situation.

You idiot! At such an important moment! Get hard! Please, get hard!

However the more he panicked, the more Koji’s penis shriveled up. Suzuka leaned in and whispered in his ear.

“…What’s wrong, Koji-san?”

“I-I’m sorry… I’m so sorry, Suzuka… I… I can’t… It’s not working…”

Koji cried uncontrollably like a child, burying his face in Suzuka’s chest.

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”

Suzuka gently stroked Koji’s head.

“Don’t worry about it, Koji… just being with you like this makes me happy…”

“I truly… am sorry…”

“I’ve heard that the more anxious you are, the worse it gets… so don’t worry about it…”

Koji sobbed, overwhelmed by Suzuka’s feelings and kindness.

The moonlight streaming through the window illuminated Suzuka’s naked body.

He gently placed his lips on Suzuka’s small lips.

“…Where is your home?”

“…I don’t have one.”

“I see…”

To Koji, it no longer mattered.

“Would you like to live with me?”

“Eh…?”

“… I-I want you to stay with me, forever.”

“I’m so happy…”

Tears welled up in Suzuka’s eyes as she buried her face in Koji’s chest.

“I love you, Suzuka…”

Koji and Suzuka’s life living together began.

Koji knew nothing about Suzuka. He didn’t know her last name, her family, or even her age. Her name, Suzuka, even seemed suspicious to him.

But what does it matter? What would change if he knew?

She loves him. Isn’t that enough?

Koji truly loved Suzuka from the bottom of his heart.

The days felt like a dream, peaceful and full of happiness.

However, there was one thing that felt off.

From the time they met up until today.

He never once saw her smile.

――She was a woman who never smiled.

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