I Am Her Secret Beauty and Strong Alpha (GL) - Chapter 11

Mu Xi understood what Nan Xi meant.

But, what did it mean that she was the only alpha…?

Could it be that Nan Xi’s unstable heat cycle was because of an alpha’s influence?

But how could she, this alpha…

Mu Xi finally realized that as an alpha who looked like Nan Xi’s old love, her effect on Nan Xi seemed much bigger than she had thought.

She remembered the details of last night.

Nan Xi curled up in bed, looking painful, her pheromones uncontrollably leaking out…

“I understand, Young Miss.” Mu Xi bowed respectfully, locking all those images in the depths of her memory, not allowing them to escape even a little.

“Butler Mu, come sit beside me.” Nan Xi looked very tired, her eyes closed and her voice weak, but she pointed to the chair by the bed, asking Mu Xi to come closer.

Mu Xi hesitated, glancing at Vincent. He clearly didn’t want to get involved in any trouble. He just nodded at Mu Xi and immediately backed towards the door, closing it behind him to give them a safe and private space.

After Vincent left, Mu Xi felt a bit more at ease.

Nan Xi still lay motionless against the bed, her face pale and looking weak, like a poor rag doll with not enough stuffing. Last night’s unstable heat cycle had greatly affected her… and probably not just physically.

Thinking of this, Mu Xi became nervous again.

She stood still, trying to sound considerate, sincere, and not offensive: “Young Miss, I think…”

“I just want you to sit beside me,” Nan Xi said in a calm tone. “Can’t you even do that?”

Her tone was flat, but maybe it was just Mu Xi’s imagination, but she felt that Nan Xi sounded very wronged, wronged and…

Mu Xi would never allow her employer to speak in such a tone, so she immediately sat down beside Nan Xi’s bed.

But after sitting down, she still wanted to express her thoughts:

“Young Miss, I think we need to talk properly. If I am affecting your heat cycle, and even your health, maybe we need to keep a distance. There are many other excellent household staff in the Nan family…”

She knew that saying this might increase the risk of losing her job. But continuing like this wasn’t a solution. Using inhibitors irregularly and in varying amounts would harm a normal heat cycle, especially since Nan Xi was already weak.

Unexpectedly, Nan Xi, still pale, gave a bitter smile. She looked fragile and pitiful, like a bird with wings broken by a storm, on the verge of shattering at any moment.

She said:

“No, Mu Xi, it’s not because of you.”

Mu Xi.

It had been a long time since Mu Xi had been called “Mu Xi,” so her thoughts drifted away for a moment.

“Do you know what day yesterday was?”

“August 19th…?” Mu Xi guessed that she wouldn’t know what day it was, so she just repeated it.

Nan Xi said, “Yes, it was the day she marked me.”

Mu Xi almost jumped up from her chair.

Since this “marking” was important enough for Nan Xi to specifically remember the date, it must not have been a temporary mark.

“Madam… does Madam know about this?”

Being permanently marked was a big deal. Nan Xi could no longer accept other alphas’ advances and would regularly need the re-marking of that deceased person.

But from Nan Xi’s words, that person seemed to have been gone for a long time. Did the mark on Nan Xi still exist…?

“Butler Mu, I’m very sorry for bringing this up to you. It’s my private matter, and it might make you feel disgusted.”

Nan Xi lowered her head, burying her hands in the blanket. “Five years have passed, and my mark has faded quite a bit, but it still exists… If you, if you don’t feel anything, then you are indeed not her. I won’t do anything to embarrass you again.”

Mu Xi didn’t feel disgusted, but she did feel embarrassed.

She felt immense sympathy for Nan Xi’s situation and was also very relieved by what she had just said.

Mu Xi couldn’t help leaning forward a little, bringing them closer: “Thank you.”

“Mm, you can also report to my mother now.”

When Nan Xi said this, everything was as usual, so calm as if discussing today’s breakfast menu, instead of dropping a bombshell in Mu Xi’s heart.

Mu Xi was very surprised. Of course, she wouldn’t mention her own difficulties to Nan Xi, and she believed Nan Zhiyai wouldn’t either.

Nan Xi saw her surprised expression and smiled softly: “You’re very surprised? It’s simple. You’re a competent butler. After my physical exam that day, I would naturally report my situation to Mom, and Mom would naturally ask you to take more care of me. Otherwise, why would she have actively wanted to travel with me? You don’t even like me.”

“…” Mu Xi looked out the window somewhat awkwardly. The mountain scenery was beautiful, the greenest and brightest time of midsummer. Maybe it was a good time to talk things out.

Both of them fell silent, their minds wandering in the same space with different thoughts.

Their eyes no longer met, especially Nan Xi, who stared at a wrinkled part of the blanket in front of her the whole time, her mind flying far away.

About thirty minutes later.

Mu Xi’s phone suddenly rang. Mu Xi got up somewhat awkwardly to answer it outside. After a few hurried words, she came back in, her previous guilty look gone, her expression so serious that Nan Xi’s heart sank.

Sure enough, Mu Xi didn’t bring good news:

“Your great-grandmother, Madam Nan Youlin, has passed away,” Mu Xi announced the bad news in a low and quick voice. “The car to pick you up is on its way here. I’m very sorry, Young Miss, you need to prepare.”

Nan Xi, however, stayed on the bed for a long time without moving.

That was Nan Zhiyai’s grandmother, who had been living in a nursing home since Nan Xi was in middle school. She had gotten used to her great-grandmother’s unhealthy but always smiling state, but fate had still brought this day.

By the time the tears in Nan Xi’s eyes had dried, she finally replied in a low voice, “I understand,” then lifted the blanket and got out of bed, preparing to pack up and return to the Nan family.

She had just experienced an abnormal heat cycle last night. Mu Xi worriedly wanted to reach out to support her but was gently and politely refused.

“No need, thank you.”

Nan Xi sounded sad and dejected. Mu Xi didn’t go through any unnecessary formalities and quickly left the room, returning to her own room to pack as well.

Although sad, the reality was that this sudden event would probably increase the workload.

In name, Madam Nan Youlin’s funeral would be held by Nan Zhiyai, but Nan Zhiyai was so busy, how could she possibly be responsible for every detail of the funeral?

In the end, it would still fall on the Nan family’s household staff, mostly on Mu Xi.

Mu Xi usually wore the same outfit every day. The combination of a white shirt and black suit was not only dirt-resistant and practical but also convenient for attending various occasions, even funerals.

At this moment, with a heavy heart, she took out a new black suit jacket from the dark closet and put it on, packed her backpack, said goodbye to Vincent briefly, and waited downstairs for the Nan family’s driver.

Nan Xi appeared also wearing a black suit, the area around her eyes red.

Mu Xi wanted to go forward and say a few words of comfort, but she remembered what she had heard in Nan Xi’s room ten minutes ago, and her legs felt like lead, rooted to the spot.

The Nan family’s driver arrived quickly, and Mu Xi and Nan Xi soon left this summer villa famous for wine and various insects, returning to the Nan family.

Inside the Nan family’s gate, everyone had already arrived, even Nan Lian, who was on a business trip, and Guan Yan, who was sketching in a nearby city, were standing in the living room.

Seeing Nan Xi, the usually capable and strong Nan Lian tugged at the corner of her mouth as a greeting.

Guan Yan, on the other hand, had red eyes and was leaning against Nan Zhiyai for support.

After the whole family arrived, Mu Xi drove them to the funeral home. The staff from the nursing home had already sent Nan Youlin’s body over.

Mu Xi waited outside while the Nan family went in to see Nan Youlin’s body.

Crying soon came from the cold and cramped room, first Guan Yan’s, then Nan Nan’s, and then Nan Xi’s.

Everyone who came out looked more haggard than before, especially Nan Xi, who was the weakest. She looked like she had lost her soul, leaning on her sister and sobbing softly, two tear tracks dried on her face.

Mu Xi thought Nan Lian should give her a hug, but Nan Lian herself was also sad.

The people from the nursing home said that Nan Youlin had passed away peacefully without pain, with a smile on her lips, telling the nurse beside her that she hoped her family wouldn’t be sad and that she had no regrets.

After hearing this, Nan Zhiyai lowered her head and closed her eyes for a moment. When she raised her head again, her face had actually returned to a calm expression, and she began to negotiate cremation matters with the funeral home staff.

Nan Lian also quickly regained her composure and went to the side to call the lawyer to discuss the handling of Nan Youlin’s estate.

After Nan Lian left, Nan Xi had no one to lean on. Her father, Guan Yan, was still crying while hugging Nan Nan, so she leaned against the wall in a daze.

Mu Xi looked at her for a long time.

There was naturally a struggle in her heart. Nan Xi’s words in the villa kept echoing in Mu Xi’s ears, making her give up going forward to comfort her several times.

However, even from the perspective of a master-servant relationship, her comfort at this time would be reasonable, right?

Mu Xi lowered her head and quickly approached Nan Xi, saying, “Please accept my condolences.”

Before Nan Xi could answer, she immediately went to Guan Yan, who was crying heavily, to offer comfort, and took him to the bathroom to wash his face.

After the two came out, Nan Xi was no longer leaning against the wall. She just stood with her arms crossed, staring at the ground, probably missing her great-grandmother.

She also went to her father, whispered a few words of comfort, exchanged glances with Mu Xi, took her grieving father from Mu Xi’s hand, and took him outside to get some air and calm down.

Mu Xi looked at their backs somewhat blankly.

Not only was she blank now, but seeing the sad looks of the Nan family, seeing the usually unbreakable Nan Zhiyai show a fragile side, she also felt blank.

Mu Xi had no relatives and had always been alone, both before and after transmigrating into the book.

If she had to say who her closest people were, it would probably be her employers, the Nan family.

Mu Xi thought that if something bad happened to the Nan family, she would definitely be sad and cry, but that feeling would definitely be different from what she saw in the Nan family’s expressions.

She was someone who lacked something, probably not entirely complete compared to other ordinary people. She lacked something that could stir her emotions, being so calm and efficient that she was like a tireless machine.

Was this good or bad? Could it be precisely because of this that she was perfectly suited to be a butler who paid attention to everything?

Mu Xi didn’t know.