I Deduce the Female Lead Likes Me [Transmigration into a book] - Chapter 22: Visiting the Sick
On the weekend, Song Muxue accompanied Kou Shuang to visit Sun Jiawen at the mental hospital. Song Muxue bought some food and drinks, but Kou Shuang said it was completely unnecessary, which made Song Muxue a little puzzled: Isn’t this basic visiting etiquette?
What Kou Shuang was thinking was entirely different. She wanted to see Sun Jiawen’s inner personality, and the inner personality wouldn’t care about these things.
Before entering the ward, Dr. Li carefully explained the current situation.
“The patient’s primary symptoms are dual personality, schizophrenia, delusions, and mania. Currently, the dual personality symptoms have been largely controlled, but it’s uncertain if they will reappear. The meeting with Miss Kou may trigger mania; please be very careful.”
Kou Shuang nodded while thinking: Dual personality and delusions should be the “symptoms” of the inner personality, while schizophrenia and mania should belong to Sun Jiawen.
Is “dual personality controlled” referring to the inner personality having disappeared? Or is she hiding?
Last time when Song Muxue was unconscious, Kou Shuang should have met the other personality in some alternate dimension created by Sun Jiawen. With that personality’s keen mental state, temporarily hiding wouldn’t be impossible.
“Too many people will stimulate the patient, so only one person can enter at a time. Miss Kou, please rest assured, I will monitor the situation outside the ward in real-time. If any sudden situation occurs, medical staff will immediately enter to stabilize the situation and ensure no accidents happen.”
“Then can you hear my conversation with her?”
“That falls under your privacy. If you request it, the recording equipment in the ward will be turned off.”
“Then please turn it off,” Kou Shuang nodded and stepped into the ward.
The ward was a huge white box, and its interior decoration was so white it was chilling. Next to the door was a large glass window, through which Dr. Li and Song Muxue were observing Sun Jiawen and Kou Shuang.
Sun Jiawen wore a patient gown. Her face was pale, complementing the room’s white tones, and her gaze was somewhat vacant, showing she had suffered a lot in the mental hospital. Her first words upon seeing Kou Shuang were: “Where’s Lu Renjia?”
Kou Shuang sat on the chair opposite her, watching her, and asked: “Where’s the other you?”
Sun Jiawen paused, looking at her guardedly, and said: “Bring Lu Renjia, and I’ll let you see her.”
Kou Shuang narrowed her eyes and said: “Are you negotiating with me?”
Originally, Kou Shuang wasn’t sure how much Sun Jiawen knew. She just asked casually, but unexpectedly, she got information out of her. Sun Jiawen knew about the existence of the other personality and had a considerable degree of control, able to let her see that personality.
Sun Jiawen instinctively sensed danger and flinched back, but still forced herself to say: “Bring Lu Renjia over.”
Kou Shuang smiled, said nothing, and stood up to walk out of the ward. Sun Jiawen immediately grew anxious and said: “Or you can video call him. I just want to see him.”
Kou Shuang opened the ward door, leaned out halfway, and asked: “Dr. Li, is it alright what I say to the patient or what I do?”
Dr. Li was startled, not knowing what trick Kou Shuang was up to. He instinctively replied: “You mustn’t harm the patient.”
Kou Shuang nodded with a smile.
She then walked back in and stood in front of Sun Jiawen.
Sun Jiawen’s face contorted into one of panic and weakness. She lashed out at Kou Shuang: “What are you doing!”
Kou Shuang pressed her shoulders and slowly leaned down.
“Disgusting! Let go of me! What are you doing! You pervert!” Sun Jiawen cursed “disgusting” while struggling.
Sun Jiawen disliked her, seeing her as a love rival, but the other personality’s attitude towards her was very ambiguous. Kou Shuang was gambling on this; she gambled that Sun Jiawen’s inner personality would emerge.
Kou Shuang ignored Sun Jiawen’s struggles. The distance between them grew smaller and smaller, almost to the point of a kiss.
Dr. Li shifted, feeling somewhat at a loss. What was this Miss Kou up to? Although she wasn’t physically harming the patient, still…
Dr. Li glanced at Song Muxue, wanted to say something, but swallowed his words.
Song Muxue was expressionless, but her eyes deepened.
Just as Kou Shuang was about to touch her, Sun Jiawen suddenly changed her demeanor.
“What do you want with me?” The inner personality emerged.
The inner personality forced a smile, her face even paler. She glanced in the direction of the doctor and said: “I finally managed to fool him. You’ll bring me trouble this way, do you understand?”
Kou Shuang was startled, not expecting this. She quickly apologized: “Sorry.”
The inner personality waved her hand and said: “Ask quickly whatever you want to ask. I don’t have much time.”
Time? What time?
Kou Shuang looked at Sun Jiawen’s tightly furrowed brows and felt she might have chosen the wrong time. “Are you alright?”
Sun Jiawen glared at Kou Shuang, slammed her hands on the table, and said: “Ask!”
The water glass on the table vibrated, splashing several drops of water.
Dr. Li had been closely monitoring the situation from outside the door. Seeing Sun Jiawen suddenly become manic, he almost pushed the door open but was stopped by a gesture from Song Muxue.
Sun Jiawen rubbed her forehead, looking very distressed.
Kou Shuang said no more and went straight to the point: “What did you mean last time by ‘heavenly secrets cannot be revealed’? Have you tried anything yourself?”
Kou Shuang asked vaguely. Firstly, she wasn’t sure if Sun Jiawen had made similar attempts to hers. Secondly, she didn’t know if Sun Jiawen’s life trajectory had been planned by this unknown and uncontrollable force.
Her job search failures, her accounting exam results being canceled due to cheating—was it because she had done something forbidden, or because “Kou Shuang’s” life had already been predetermined by the original author, so any change she made would meet unusual resistance?
Sun Jiawen smiled contemptuously and said: “Did you do something? Or did you tell someone?”
Sun Jiawen gripped Kou Shuang’s hand, her fingers pressing with unusual force, as if to break Kou Shuang’s skin. Kou Shuang felt some pain but endured it, saying: “I chose another path. I studied accounting.”
Sun Jiawen was startled.
“But, the whole world seems to be against me. I can’t change careers.”
Sun Jiawen paused, then slumped into the chair, saying: “You said this is a book, right.”
Kou Shuang said nothing. Sun Jiawen continued on her own: “If it’s a book, it has a plot, settings… So this is what fate is… The truth is this… Ha, haha, hahaha…”
She laughed uproariously, and as she laughed, tears streamed down her face. She leaned back in the chair, staring directly at the ceiling, and said: “I don’t know what my fate is. I once tried to tell others what I knew. But no one understood.”
Sun Jiawen suddenly looked at Kou Shuang and said: “Heavenly secrets cannot be revealed, otherwise it will bring ‘divine retribution’! You’ll be bitten by snakes, hit by cars, struck by flowerpots, abandoned by your parents, deceived by men… All misfortunes will come your way, unless you shut up, unless you keep the secret.”
“Did you keep the secret? Did you tell your friend?” Sun Jiawen said, turning her head to look out the window, meeting Song Muxue’s gaze directly.
“You…” Kou Shuang looked back at Song Muxue, finding she couldn’t discern her expression. “Have all these things happened to you before?”
“Otherwise?” Sun Jiawen looked at Kou Shuang and said: “Otherwise, why would I be here? I can’t stand it anymore. I carry the biggest secret in the world, yet I can’t say anything, and no one can prove to me that I’m right. I have no choice but to become a silent little girl who knows nothing. Look at Sun Jiawen, what does she know? Humph.”
“But now I have you, even if I can never speak…” Sun Jiawen didn’t finish her sentence. She smiled at Kou Shuang, and only then did Kou Shuang realize she had been mistaken about something all along.
The inner personality was Sun Jiawen’s true personality! The one she had always seen was just a doll created by this Sun Jiawen to escape divine retribution!
And now, this Sun Jiawen was so weak, confined in a mental hospital, hiding through some means Kou Shuang didn’t understand.
And now, she had even called her out! Right in front of the doctor!
Misfortunes all went towards Sun Jiawen. How was this different from her own series of setbacks? It was just that the latter was milder. It was a good thing she came to find Sun Jiawen.
If the entire world was against Sun Jiawen, then this Dr. Li could also be considered one of Sun Jiawen’s “misfortunes.”
Kou Shuang looked back at Dr. Li, then said to Sun Jiawen: “Did calling you out cause you any trouble?”
“No,” Sun Jiawen shook her head and gave a bitter smile: “Meeting you has benefited me greatly too. I’m glad I wasn’t wrong; this world is. At least you’re my accomplice, ha, don’t let the ‘world’ catch you.”
“Thank you, goodbye.” Sun Jiawen said, then smiled strangely, suddenly standing up and gesticulating wildly, muttering something incoherently.
This… has she changed again?
Sun Jiawen hadn’t made any aggressive moves just now, so Dr. Li was slightly hesitant. But this current state clearly indicated a breakdown. Dr. Li rushed in with his medical team and quickly subdued Sun Jiawen, giving her an injection in the neck.
Sun Jiawen, however, kept staring fixedly at Kou Shuang, gritting her teeth and saying: “Don’t say it! Don’t you dare say it!”
The medical staff scurried around, in a state of chaos, and it took a while for Sun Jiawen to finally fall into a coma.
Dr. Li wiped the sweat from his forehead and said to Kou Shuang: “Miss Kou, I apologize, the patient’s condition is a bit unstable. Today’s visit ends here.”
Kou Shuang looked at the quiet Sun Jiawen. For some reason, she had a premonition.
She might never see this inner personality again.
Cannot say… You know the world’s biggest secret, but you can’t say anything.
Kou Shuang walked out of the room in a daze, wandering down the corridor.
Song Muxue followed behind Kou Shuang. Just as she was about to leave, she was stopped by Dr. Li.
“Miss Song, does your friend also need to visit our hospital?”
Song Muxue looked at Kou Shuang’s back, then at Sun Jiawen, who was at the mercy of others after being sedated. She quickly shook her head and said: “Sorry, no need.”