I Planned My Escape Because I Knew Her Secret - Episode 35

Madoka continued to keep secrets for five years, and as a result, she ended up being stood up at her wedding and dumped.

On top of that, she said, “I won’t hide anything or lie anymore. I’ll do my best to earn your trust, Masa-kun.”

I think it’s easy to say in words.

But considering what Madoka has experienced so far, her words felt heavy.

“Madoka, thank you for talking to me.”

“No, it’s the other way around. Thank you for listening to me. You must be disillusioned, right?”

“Disillusionment, huh… If it had been five years ago, I would have been disillusioned, but not so much now. Maybe because it wasn’t as bad as I thought. Good or bad, Madoka was still Madoka, I think.”

“Is that so?”

“Yeah”

“I see. Masakun was really my number one understanding person after all. I can’t help but dislike myself for realizing this.”

“Oh, but there are still a few things I want to confirm.”

“Yeah, ask me anything. I’ll answer everything properly.”

“Well, the first thing I knew was that Madoka quit and retired from the shop about three months before the wedding, right? It was because she was getting married? Or was there another reason?”

“Yeah, I definitely quit completely in February of that year. Of course, I haven’t been involved in the adult entertainment industry at all since then. Actually, I was planning to retire in March, not February. But as I mentioned yesterday, I started feeling uneasy about Masa-kun’s behavior, and I became really scared that my part-time job in the adult entertainment industry would be found out, so I decided to quit right away.”

“Speaking of which, we talked about that yesterday, didn’t we? You were worried that I might find out and break up with you, so you kept calling me over and wanted to meet up often, and you said you didn’t want to get out of the car after our dates, right? That was around that time, wasn’t it?”

“Yeah. I was so scared; I couldn’t help it.”

“I see. So, at that time, you had no intention of bringing your work as an SM dominatrix into our married life, right?”

“Yeah. I swear I didn’t mean to.”

“Got it. So, the second thing I want to ask is, back in our student days when we used to go to love hotels, you always prepared sexy lingerie for us, right? Was that a gift from the customers?”

“Well, I did receive underwear as a gift once, but I never used it. It’s kind of creepy, right? So, I only used the underwear I bought myself.”

“I see. You know, it’s just my own impression, but I have this image that gifts from customers at adult entertainment places are 100% motivated by ulterior motives. So, when I think about how I was happy seeing Madoka wearing the underwear she got from a customer without knowing, it really gets me down. You probably think I’m a narrow-minded, petty guy.”

“No, I don’t think that way. If I saw Masakun using a present he got from another girl, I’d be really jealous.”

“I see. Well, that makes sense. I can understand it with some perspective now, but back then, just thinking about it was tough.”

“Yeah, that’s right. I’m really sorry, okay?”

“Oh, I didn’t mean to blame you now or anything. Just like with Madoka, I just wanted to say that back then, I was young and didn’t have the luxury to be relaxed either.”

“I see. So, do you have any other questions you want to ask?”

“Um, just one last thing. It’s not that I’m suspicious or anything, I just want to confirm.”

“Yeah”

“Is there anything else you’re hiding? For example, have you ever cheated or had any debts? I found out about the SM girl by chance and used a private investigator to look into it, so I was able to grasp the situation. But if there’s anything else, I have no idea. So, if there’s something, I want to hear it from you, Madoka.”

“I have absolutely no affairs or debts. I know it might not sound convincing coming from me, since I’ve been hiding my part-time job at the adult entertainment industry, but I swear it’s true. I’ve only kissed and had s3x with Masa-kun. There’s nothing else I’m hiding. I can’t say not to doubt me, but I want you to believe me. If it means earning your trust, I’ll do anything.”

“Got it. It’s not like I asked because I was suspicious. I want to believe in Madoka too. That’s why I asked for a final confirmation.”

“Yeah. But no matter what I’m suspected of, I did those things, so I don’t intend to complain about it.”

“Got it. Oh, and sorry. I said I don’t lie, but I actually told one lie earlier. I said I’ve never been to a brothel, but the truth is I’ve been once. After I found out that Madoka was working as an SM dominatrix, I was struggling to understand her, so I thought I’d try an SM experience just once. I ended up saying I hadn’t been when I got caught up in the conversation earlier.”

“Huh? Huh? Masakun did BDSM? I’m really curious about that story!”

“Let’s talk about that time later… it’s quite a trauma for me…”

When I hear Madoka’s story, the first thing that comes to mind is “the past is the past.”

Back in those days when I was young, I was trapped by the past and chose to hurt Madoka and run away.

But the current me is more about the future than the past.

I chose the path of a udon master.

I chose the path of marrying Madoka and living together again.

I decided to stop running away, so I deliberately insisted on “marriage” and closed off my own escape route.

And after hearing all of Madoka’s story, this time, let me show you the proof of my determination.