I Planned My Escape Because I Knew Her Secret - Episode 8

A week has passed since I received the final report from the private investigation agency.

In about three months, the wedding will be here.

If we keep dragging this out, the wedding will be here before we know it.

As expected, it seems I lack the ruthlessness to cut Madoka off, and the feelings I’ve nurtured for her over the past ten years are trying to stop me from making the decision to break off the engagement.

But even if we get married as things are, I want to do it only after I’m convinced.

The fact that you were hiding things was shocking, but if I think about it calmly, it was probably something you couldn’t tell me, so you had no choice but to hide it. For example, if I were to replace your night job with something else and think about it as if you broke something important of mine, it would have been hard to say. From now on, just be honest with me, and it will be fine.

So if we just focus on the “secrets,” I can’t forgive it, but I think I could turn a blind eye. I have things that are hard to say to Madoka too. Not to this extent, though.

Regarding the reason, it doesn’t seem like it’s for money, and I don’t think I could be convinced no matter what reason I heard. Back when we were students, I could understand if it was for money, but now they probably get a decent salary. It’s probably not that different from mine. Their bonus might even be more than mine.

So, the reason it’s still going on, I probably can’t understand it, and once I hear it, I can’t help but think it’s a story that would make me utterly despise or loathe Madoka.

Honestly, I don’t want to hear it. That’s the truth.

So, if I choose to forgive, I think the only way I can manage is to keep this to myself and pretend I haven’t noticed.

And

The biggest issue is the s3x industry. Moreover, it’s an SM club.

I had come to the conclusion of whether or not I could forgive this part.

When it comes to getting married, I want her to quit being an SM mistress.

Actually, I really want you to quit right now, but I don’t have the courage to say that.

Also, assuming that Madoka has such a kink, when this is made public, will I be able to deal with Madoka’s kink?

I don’t have that kind of kink, so if they said they would continue even after getting married, it would be impossible for me. Or rather, is it possible that they already see me that way?

If I had a masochistic tendency, would Madoka have worked at an SM club or something?

But, I’ve never been asked something like that before.

Shall we actually try it out?

Suddenly, such a thought crossed my mind.

Maybe I should actually go to an SM club and experience that kind of play before making a judgment.

But, SM clubs have a high barrier to entry compared to other types of adult entertainment, you know.

Me, who has never experienced the s3x industry, suddenly debuting at an SM club?

Hmm

Since Madoka is able to work normally, I should be able to do at least that much as a customer, right…?

That day, I researched a lot about SM clubs on the internet.

I devoured things like beginner’s guides, personal experiences, and etiquette tips.

And then, I made a reservation for the day off from my next job.

The store, of course, is different from Madoka’s store.

It’s a store in the neighboring prefecture.

I called and asked if it was okay for someone with no experience, and they said, “If you play softly, you’ll have a great time,” so I replied, “Okay, I’ll make a reservation.”

Ms. S also carefully selected someone online and, thinking they were of a similar age and build to Madoka, made a reservation. Fortunately, they were able to book it for that day.

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And on the day.

The reservation is at 5 PM.

I left home around noon and headed there by car.

This day is a weekday, and Madoka is at work.

Madoka probably won’t notice.

While driving a car

“I wondered, ‘If I could open the door to SM, would Madoka be happy?’ but it didn’t feel like that was the issue.”