I Reincarnated as Just a Mob in an Eroge World, but the Heroines Are Swarming Me - Episode 55
Episode 55
(Luminous’ Perspective)
They said Takigawa’s treatment was complete, but… he still hasn’t woken up.
….…It scared me to see him like that. And now, I’ve shut myself in my room at the inn.
I wanted to stay by his side, but… I was too afraid to be near him.
I lay on my futon, pressing my face into the pillow, muffling the sound of my sobs as tears streamed down.
—This is all my fault.
If only I had stopped him that day… no, even earlier.
If I had the ability, Takigawa wouldn’t have been dragged into our Union in the first place.
That day when I involved Takigawa in the Union…
—It was my fault he ended up being chased by the Kyōjū.
The delay in collecting the souls drew its attention, forcing us to flee.
And because of that, Takigawa got involved.
…Even after involving him, it didn’t end there. If I had been stronger, Takigawa could have become an even more powerful Soul Binder.
If that had happened, maybe he would’ve had the strength to eliminate enemies on his own like Kirisaki…
And… if someone like me, a failure, hadn’t been in the picture—if he’d only been contracted with Seraph—it could have all turned out differently.
The memory of Takigawa’s battered body flashes through my mind, and the tears won’t stop.
Hearing my own sobs only makes me more aware of my weakness, and I bury my face deeper into the pillow.
“If only I were more capable… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry…”
Over and over, images of Takigawa’s bloodied, broken body flood my thoughts. Again and again, I apologize to him in my head, as if begging for forgiveness.
His pitiful form, his torn skin, his lifeless face.
My trembling hands clutch my arms tightly, trying to hold back the flood of emotions. But it’s impossible.
“If I had just been better… If only I were stronger… I’m sorry, I’m so sorry…”
The weight of self-loathing wraps around me like chains, squeezing the air out of my lungs. I choke and cough, my throat tightening.
Even when I shut my eyes tightly, I can’t sleep. What if I had done this? What if I had done that? I can’t stop thinking about the ways things could have been different.
If he’d contracted with Lucifer Union, Takigawa’s injuries would’ve been much lighter.
As I’m swept away by the endless tide of regrets, the only words that escape my lips are apologies.
“Takigawa… I’m so sorry…”
Because it’s all my fault he’s hurt.
At that moment, I thought I heard the door to my room creak open.
“…Luminous-san. Takigawa-san’s treatment is complete. They said his heart is still beating. Now we just have to wait for him to wake up.”
It was Martha-san’s voice. I turned my eyes toward her.
“…Is Takigawa okay?”
“I don’t think his life is in danger. However, they mentioned the injuries he sustained from the battle with the Kyōjūs were severe… there’s a chance he may have lasting aftereffects.”
Martha-san spoke calmly but kept her gaze lowered. …But it wasn’t Martha-san’s fault.
—Because everything was my fault.
In my mind, Takigawa’s image appeared again and again—his face, his voice, his warmth. It was all burned into me, yet it still wasn’t enough.
I wanted to feel closer to him, to hold onto him completely. The more I thought about it, the tighter the ache in my chest became.
If only I’d been stronger, Takigawa wouldn’t have gotten hurt.
His pain is my pain; his wounds are my sin. I must carry it all and make amends.
“I’ll give everything… everything I have to Takigawa.”
The deeper the bond between a demon and their soul contractor, the more power the contractor gains.
If I can get closer to Takigawa, if I can make myself his entirely, if I can strengthen our connection…
Then I’ll do anything to protect him. I’ll give my life, my heart, my soul—everything—for Takigawa. Whatever he wants, I’ll do it.
Even if he’s lost everything… I’ll give him everything in return.
This feeling inside me—I’ll offer it to him, whether he accepts it or not. That’s enough for me.
…….On that day, Takigawa saved me.
—He saved my heart, which had been crushed after countless defeats to Seraph and years of ridicule at home.
I’ll give him everything.
“So that Takigawa… never gets hurt again. I’ll protect him.”
My voice was so low, so quiet, it startled even me.
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