I Won't Clear Up the Misunderstanding. I Don't Mind Being the Villainess. - Chapter 32

Rain seems willing to believe my story, at least to some extent.
I know I haven’t earned her complete trust, but I can’t really blame her for that.
I opened my mouth, ready to make a rather crucial request.
“On a different note, I’d really appreciate having a private first-aid kit.”
Rain looked at me, a flicker of surprise on her face as she processed the sudden change of topic.
“A medicine box? Is that something I should take care of?”
“Yes, if you possibly could.”
“I don’t mind. What sort of medicines are you looking for?”
She slipped back into her doctor persona, and I gave her my list.
“Well, I’d need bandages, wound ointment, and painkillers. And, if it’s at all possible, sleeping pills and tranquillizers as well.”
“I can certainly prepare the plasters, ointment, and pain relief… but you wish to keep sleeping pills and tranquillizers permanently on hand?”
“Please don’t worry, I won’t form a habit. But given my rather precarious position… I imagine there will be nights when my peace of mind is entirely gone.”
I watched her face as I said this. After a moment of consideration, Rain quietly replied, “Understood.”
I was thrilled inside at how much more accommodating she was than I’d expected.
I was right to have declared from the beginning that Kevin and I harbored zero goodwill toward each other.
And so far, Kevin hasn’t engaged in the sexual harassment I dreaded. Perhaps it’s because we’ve only had serious conversations.
I don’t know his true intentions, but this helpful atmosphere was exactly what I needed for my main request. I laid out my most important concern to Rain.
“Thank you so much. Also, I need you to procure contraceptives for me.”
“I beg your pardon?”
“Contraceptives. I absolutely refuse to have a child with Lord Kevin.”
I held Rain’s green gaze, choosing my words carefully so as not to inflame her loyalty to the family.
“Lord Kevin still only loves Lady Lily. Because of that, I would prefer to avoid sexual intimacy altogether, but…”
“You really must… discuss this with Kevin.”
“Lord Kevin’s words and actions are often at odds. To put it shamefully, there are times when he loses the battle with his own lust.”
I subtly touched my shoulder. He had just grabbed me there and thrown me against the wall.
Before that, he’d forcibly kissed me.
I was barely keeping him at bay by using Lily as a shield and challenging his pride, but I knew an unplanned incident could always happen.
I needed to cover all my bases.
“If I were to fall pregnant, I suspect Lord Kevin would be the one to regret it most deeply.”
Even if a child were born, he would never love them; in fact, he would surely resent them.
I don’t dislike children. I could easily dote on a child not related to me, barring some extraordinary circumstance.
One of the three children I’d had in my previous life was adopted. I still consider all of them my own.
But I would never bring a child into this world with a man I didn’t love, knowing they would face inevitable suffering.
“He already resents the two children Lady Lily bore.”
“What? Are you talking about Leo and Ron?”
“You were unaware? The result of completely handing over their education to a governess was a disaster.”
I quickly outlined the actions of Madam Marvella toward the brothers. Rain’s face grew tight with alarm.
“That is… if they’d continued on that path, it truly would have been problematic. I only monitored their physical health during examinations; I neglected their mental state.”
I’m a failure as a doctor. I wished Kevin could absorb even a fraction of the genuine regret Rain was showing.
“Madam Marvella will be dismissed for insulting Lady Lily, so I believe the children’s educational situation will improve now.”
“I suppose… that is a positive outcome, ultimately.”
“Yes. Though it would have been best if Lord Kevin had been the one to get angry and defend his children.”
Rain remained silent at my observation. I pressed her again.
“You will prepare the contraceptives for me, won’t you?”
“…Alright. But you must not overuse them. I need you to report their use, even if it’s just in a note.”
“Thank you. I sincerely pray I never have the occasion to use them.”
“Just one thing… how did you know I could prepare contraceptives?”
Rain asked, utterly bewildered. I momentarily froze.
The reason I knew she could prepare them was, of course…
“My paternal half-sister, Rose, often requested them from the Countess family’s physician, so I just assumed any doctor would be able to.”
I certainly couldn’t tell her the real reason: that I knew because, in the original story, Rain tried to force them on Erica, which ultimately led to Kevin condemning her.
(He really should have condemned the person who drove her to such an extreme act as well…)
As I considered that, a thought struck me.
The person who pushed Rain to such a violent act and the man she was happily leaning on in the final chapter are most likely the same person.