I Would Like To Live A Different Life If I Could Go Back In Time - Episode 35

“Miss Yuria, it’s morning!”

“Emma, good morning. I’ll get ready right away.”

I groggily get out of bed and start getting ready for the morning. While helping Graham, I have breakfast, and reluctantly say goodbye to my younger siblings before returning to the mansion.

The dress I wore yesterday is still at the inn. Right now, I’m wearing a commoner’s shirt and pants with a hood. They have a room prepared for me at Eme’s house too, so I can come back here anytime.

“I have just returned. Father, I apologize for the trouble I caused.”

As soon as I entered my father’s office, I apologized. In the office were my father, my mother, and for some reason, my younger siblings as well. My father simply nodded without changing his expression.

As usual, my father seems to be listening to me while working, but he doesn’t seem very interested.

“What did His Majesty say?”

“I was thanked for the recent attack incident. And they asked what kind of reward I would like.”

“What did you do with it? Did you turn it into land? Or did you convert it into a reward?”

“No, I requested to eat the sweets made in the royal castle.”

“Confectionery, huh?”

My father stops what he’s doing and looks at me. Well, I guess so.

“Yes. It’s sweets. The sweets from the royal castle are not something you can usually have.”

When I answered like that, Jonas laughed mockingly.

“Ahahaha. That’s funny. Sister, are you an idiot? No, you are, right? You asked for sweets without even thinking about it? This is why being uneducated is a problem! You’re only interested in what’s in front of you.”

Jonas and Allen are both laughing mockingly. They were annoying and troublesome, so I used magic to seal their mouths.

“If you receive territories or rewards, you could buy as many of those as you want. You could have even aspired to an engagement with Prince Randolph.”

My father said, tapping the desk with his fingers in irritation. As for my mother, she seemed sullen but had no intention of intervening.

“Even if I desired the territory, it wouldn’t benefit me, would it? Because Jonas is the one who will inherit this house.”

Even the bonuses go into the household, and I don’t get any of it back. Well, even if I did receive it, I wouldn’t have any use for it anyway.

And am I engaged to His Highness? Will I become queen after spending time in the territory?

Without any education? Just going to the palace and collapsing? The other nobles wouldn’t stand for that.

I don’t want anything. Ah, I wish I had wished for freedom. Next time, I’ll make sure to convey that.

“Don’t you have any gratitude for being raised?”

“Wasn’t it you who turned your back on me when I fell ill?”

You avoided me, saying I was annoying and troublesome. Did you ever come to see me even once while I was living in the territory? The same goes for my younger brothers.

Even though we are bl00d siblings, I get treated like this. Did I do something wrong? Am I some kind of criminal?

It seemed that no one expected me to object, and everyone came to a complete stop.

“I was sent to the estate at the age of three, and I wouldn’t have survived if the maid hadn’t raised me in place of my mother.”

I thought I could finally return to the royal capital, but my younger brothers mocked me, and to top it all off, they questioned if I had no gratitude for being raised by them. I’m shocked.

Do you have any reason to blame me after abandoning me? A reward? A new territory? Ridiculous. I wouldn’t know what to do with such things.

The royal family just wants to use me by repaying their debts. They want to take away my freedom. They just want to use me for their own convenience, that’s all.

Isn’t that what you think too, Father? You throw it away yourselves, and then when you think it might be useful, you cleverly manipulate me into obeying you?

Words overflow endlessly from my mouth once it opens. In my previous life, I was coldly abandoned by my family. This time, it feels like I was abandoned in a small space.

Even though I understood, I think there was still some part of me that wasn’t convinced.

The quiet office.

Trying to change the atmosphere, my mother started talking.

“But isn’t marrying a prince a dream for a young lady?”

“Why do you admire them?”

“Because you can become royalty, and I’ve heard that His Highness Randolph is an intelligent and wonderful person, right? Isn’t it only natural to admire him?”

Mother seems to be asking, “Why?”

“I have been living with the commoners in my territory all this time, you know? I haven’t attended a single tea party.”

Do you really think that I, who have never built any connections, could become queen just by force of admiration and that the nobility would follow me? Rather, wouldn’t the Osborn family just be laughed at?

I fully understand it from my previous life. It’s a world where if you don’t expand your connections through tea parties and balls, you’ll be taken advantage of.

As a result, he chose that woman. I lost to that woman.

“Y-Yeah, that’s true…”

The younger brothers, whose mouths have been shut, are turning bright red, but the adults, being grown-ups, understand my point and can’t retort.

I broke the spell I had cast on my younger brothers and stood up.

“Is that all? I am grateful for being allowed to enroll in the academy. But that’s all there is to it.”

“Sister, you are the disgrace of this family!! You’re nothing but a country noble who rose from commoner status! I’ll strip you of your noble title myself!”

The words that came out when I broke the spell were those…

“Sigh, my brother is so incompetent that it’s embarrassing. The future looks bleak. If this is the heir, the count family will end with Jonas. Well, it doesn’t concern me.”

If we can’t have a proper conversation, there’s no reason for me to be here, so I’m going back to the dormitory. Father, if there’s anything, please send a letter.

“Understood.”

Jonas and Allen are still immature at heart. It’s amazing that they can renounce their noble status just based on their emotions. Does Father understand this?

“Miss Yuria, I will see you off to the entrance.”

“I’m sorry for making you worry.”

“No, there’s no problem. Will you be attending the upcoming ball at the palace?”

“Ah, there was that, wasn’t there? I might not participate. Since I haven’t participated so far, I don’t think I need to this time either.”

It seems that the nobles who heard about Lady Yuria’s achievements are asking if she will attend. It might be difficult for her to decline.

“It’s such a hassle. There’s no one to escort me, and if Father insists I go, I’ll think about it then.”

“Certainly.”

When I arrived at the entrance hall, I put on my hood.

“Miss, please use the carriage.”

“I’m going to walk home today. See you.”

I walked away from the mansion. Ah, I feel so uneasy.