My Childhood Friend Who Was Doing Personal V-Tubing Got Ntr’d by a Singer (LOL), but I’ve Decided to Just Sit Back and Watch the Two of Them Roll Down the Hill of Life and Fall Into Ruin - Chapter 13: Regret ~I Am a Pitiful Princess~ [Childhood Friend's Perspective]

Chapter 13: Regret ~I Am a Pitiful Princess~ [Childhood Friend’s Perspective]

My name is Himeko Urakiri. I am surely the world’s most unfortunate Cinderella.

Takumi Takao, Tak-kun, was my childhood friend who lived in the neighborhood.
He was fun and a bit of a show-off and seemed silly, but he was kind to people, so from childhood on, Tak-kun was popular with both boys and girls.
Being the girl closest to such a Tak-kun felt good, and I could bask in a sense of superiority because the other girls in class envied me. Of course, I liked Tak-kun himself too. And so I spent the same time right beside Tak-kun and grew up.

I had no complaints about Tak-kun, but still, I thought his looks were a bit lacking in handsomeness, and as a girl of that age, I admired male singers and streamers, so I wanted to get close to that sparkling world, and I asked Tak-kun to start individual V activities.
Tak-kun’s mother was a famous illustrator whose light novels with her illustrations had been adapted into anime several times, so even though it was individual V, I gained quite a few fans, and my individual V activities went smoothly.

In the midst of all that, my admired Shion Hachiyama—Shio-tan spoke to me. At first I suspected it was a fake, but when we met, it turned out to be the real Shio-tan. There’s no way I could refuse if such a Shio-tan invited me. That very day, I got involved with Shio-tan in that way and became lovers.

It was supposed to be a date with Tak-kun on Christmas, but Shio-tan called out to me, so of course I went on a date with Shio-tan. It was from afternoon to evening, but the time flirting with Shio-tan was thrilling in the best way. Especially, Shio-tan liked it during s3x when he made me call his boyfriend’s name or say out loud that Shio-tan was better than my boyfriend, and for me too, it felt like taking a dig at Tak-kun, so I got hooked on it.

That said, I did feel a little bad for suddenly canceling the seasonal event date on Tak-kun, so I made it up to him during New Year’s, but whenever Shio-tan called out to me, I prioritized Shio-tan even if I had a promise with Tak-kun.
Of course, now—the superiority and temptation of having the shining male singer Shio-tan say he liked me was something I couldn’t stop, so I think it couldn’t be helped. I couldn’t stop my admiration! I think it’s normal to choose Shio-tan over Tak-kun, my childhood friend I could see anytime.

But while I was living like that, one day my double-dating with Shio-tan got exposed. Shio-tan used violence on Tak-kun, but—there were no witnesses, and I figured Tak-kun would surely forgive me if I apologized later, so I just went along with Shio-tan for the moment. Also, seeing Tak-kun pitifully kicked and crouching down was so pathetic and amusing.
Anyway, Tak-kun had always forgiven me if I apologized since long ago, so I backed up Shio-tan’s story, left the scene, and spent lovey-dovey time with Shio-tan.
Later, I could just apologize casually, and if needed, I could even have s3x with him. I had given my first time to Shio-tan, but in return, I had lots of s3x with Shio-tan, so it should satisfy Tak-kun, and in the end, I think Tak-kun came out ahead too.

…But that seems to have been a failure.
That scene was somehow recorded, and in no time it spread all over the world, and Shio-tan exploded into massive backlash and flaming, then got arrested and three-point shot straight into detention.

—This is bad.

Not just bad in the sense of “what’s bad, tell me,” but Tak-kun is seriously angry. No, I feel like he has no intention of forgiving me. I got anxious thinking this is dangerous if it stays like this.

I apologized properly. With all sincerity.
But Tak-kun wouldn’t forgive me. It’s something even elementary school kids understand that if you apologize, you get forgiven. There’s no reason for him to take everything from me like this!

The shell that was my emotional support, “Chōno Asher,” was unreasonably taken from me, and Shio-tan got arrested, and Tak-kun betrayed me harshly, and nothing was left around me. Just for glancing away a little, to receive treatment like this is too cruel. In the end, I planned to go back to Tak-kun’s side!!

After that, I couldn’t eat meals at Tak-kun’s house anymore, so while worrying about how to explain it to Dad and Mom, I ate retort foods to cover it up.

When I went out to buy retort foods, I ran into Tak-kun and tried to apologize. I tried to apologize!! But Tak-kun was walking arm in arm all friendly with Kusaka, that flat-chested, pancake-tits girl, and on top of that, he said he was dating that eternal A-cup girl. Even though I was there. When I cheated, he treated me so horribly, but he himself says he’s dating a no-tits girl!
To me, trembling with regret, Kusaka turned a smile like a girl in love. Seeing that happy smile with stars shining in her eyes, I felt an indescribable sense of defeat and humiliation and shame, and my legs gave out so I couldn’t stand and collapsed right there crying. Of course, I thought Tak-kun would come running over right away to comfort me, but Tak-kun left without me. It was unbelievable.

Such eating habits got noticed by Dad one day, and when he questioned me, I explained the current situation as Tak-kun, that scumbag bastard, deceiving me, toying with me, discarding me, and then cutting me off with harsh words and unilaterally breaking off relations.

…Of course, Dad got furious like a blazing fire and stormed over yelling to Tak-kun’s house. Dad had always said he was a bit of a delinquent in the past. Even when Dad cornered him with sound arguments, Tak-kun’s father kept mumbling incomprehensible excuses with lame logic. Dad, fed up with such a lowlife attitude, beat up Tak-kun’s father, but Dad got arrested on the spot for assault. Why?! Dad didn’t do anything wrong! The ones in the wrong are Tak-kun’s father and Tak-kun, who only say convenient things, right?!

“Ugh… uuuuu, ahhhhh, this is too much!!! AHYYY!!!”

Dad, who was yelling, got restrained by the police officers and thrashed around struggling, but his resistance was in vain, and he was taken away. I watched the scene in a daze, but Mom and I too were urged to come along because they wanted to hear our side. Why did it turn out like this? What did I do wrong?

Mom said she would work for Dad’s share too and didn’t come home, and instead left 90,000 yen as food money. For 30 days, live on 1,000 yen per meal, apparently. 1,000 yen per meal is way too little!!!!!! When Dad was here, we ate out four days a week, but now to get by on 1,000 yen per meal is impossible! At least leave twice that much.

On top of that, like salt in the wound, from Chōno Asher’s SNS and Tak-kun’s mother’s official account, there was an announcement of the end of Chōno Asher’s activities and deletion.
They say they’re taking away from me, like an obituary, Chōno Asher, the half of me that I worked so hard to build up, my avatar, and even deleting it. This is absolutely wrong!
I desperately sent comments and replies to resist, I sent DMs, but they all got blocked or deleted. I made new accounts and kept at it endlessly, but in the end it was just whack-a-mole and got nowhere.

—This wasn’t supposed to happen. I was supposed to be happy!! Why has it become like this, where did I go wrong?

After that, it was so painful I couldn’t even go to school and spent days holed up at home. Even so, if I didn’t buy something, with just the 90,000 yen handed to me in my wallet, I went to the shopping mall, and Tak-kun was there. Amid emotions of love and hate churning inside me, Kusaka the ugly one and Takeha Asakura the Holstein-cow girl were clinging to Tak-kun’s arms from left and right, bothering him. Stop it, “that place” is my spot!

—Get out of there!!! I’m the childhood friend!!!

Give it back, give it back, give it back give it back give it back give it back give it back!! Condemn condemn condemn condemn condemn condemn condemn condemn death penalty death penalty death penalty death penalty death penalty death penalty death penalty death penalty death penalty!!

If this keeps up, Tak-kun’s heart will completely leave me. Tak-kun said he was cutting ties, but since we were together for 10 years, surely not all his feelings for me have vanished yet. But if it stays like this, the connection will completely disappear and it’ll be too late.

I need some desperate countermeasure, some idea to turn this situation around, I have to do something, I have to think of something—there must still be some way.
Tormented by anxiety, I clawed at my chest while glaring at Tak-kun walking arm in arm looking so happy, and at flat-chested Kusaka, and at big-b00bs introvert Asakura, and groaned with regret and frustration.