My Sun and Your Star (GL) - Episode 30

Ever since Mai brought up the topic of hickeys (love bites), I’d been thinking about them all day. I felt a surge of self-loathing at the thought that maybe I was just at that age where I wanted to do such things.

I just wanted to see if I could understand, even a little bit, the feelings Mai was talking about.

And then, I thought about putting a hickey on Endo-san and seeing the look of displeasure on her face. I imagined she would make that same unpleasant face again when she saw the mark even when I wasn’t around.

The thought that Endo-san’s expression would change because she was thinking about me, even when I wasn’t with her, seemed—good, maybe.

I searched online for how to do it.

The easiest way, apparently, was to practice on your arm, and I regretted it immediately after covering my arm with a bunch of red marks.

It was summer, and now I couldn’t wear short sleeves. First of all, my older sister would make a huge fuss if she saw them. I quickly decided to wear a long-sleeved shirt, despite the height of summer.

Why do I have to spend a day like this thinking about Endo-san…?

It was all because Mai brought up a weird topic.

My relationship with Endo-san is still ambiguous.

It would have been better if we had just become friends early on. But then Endo-san insisted on paying me for studying with her, and the relationship turned strange.

It’s all Endo-san’s fault. Endo-san is the one who’s wrong.

A friend… I can’t imagine Endo-san as a friend.

Then, what is Endo-san to me?

A dog…?

I decided to stop thinking about things that have no conclusion.

More importantly, the summer festival was making me incredibly gloomy. I hate crowds, and they make me tired.

I’m not particularly interested in food or cute things, so what am I supposed to enjoy?

I’ll just tell myself I’m going out of obligation, not for fun.

Even after burrowing under the futon, I couldn’t fall asleep, and I ended up being sleep-deprived the next day.