Quick Transmigration: Kitten's Healing Handbook - Chapter 87
Chapter 87: Light In The Cracks 20
Liuli suddenly calmed down again, her voice muffled as she continued, “So you just want to see me become an oddity at school, to be made a joke of, and you’re unwilling to spend any money on my self-esteem. Yes, my self-esteem is indeed worthless. ”
I study hard to win scholarships to pay my tuition fees. I thought that if I could help you save my tuition fees, you could give me some more living expenses, so I could have a better life at school. I was wrong. You said that you have money to pay the tuition fees, and you should solve the living expenses yourself.
I don’t miss any competition with prize money, just to earn some living expenses, but you want to use my living expenses to buy toys for my brother. You said that if I participate more times, I will have money again. Are competitions something so common and easy to participate in? Is it something that can be participated in just by saying so? How much effort did I put in, and the little money I earned, I didn’t dare to eat or use it, and in the end, it all became my brother’s toys…”
Su Laidi clearly didn’t think she was wrong: “That’s your brother. Besides, girls are all worthless. I’ve raised you for so many years, isn’t it only right for you to give me something back?!”
“I used the remaining half-month’s worth of my meal money to give my brother a 200-dollar red envelope for his birthday. He, on the other hand, called me poor, and used that money to treat his classmates to milk tea. I can’t really control how he spends the money after he receives it, but does it not make me feel bad when the people bullying me tell me this as a joke? He threw away the study notes I carefully wiped, did he think I was dirty? He is my brother, when did I, his sister, ever do anything wrong to him? ”
Really, I tried to understand you. I told myself that maybe you didn’t have a good childhood either, and that you were educated with such concepts since childhood, but no matter how I try to comfort myself, I can’t fool my own heart. You don’t love me, Mother. I am also your child, why don’t you love me…”
“It’s good enough that I let you study, you’re so mentally fragile. Why are you comparing yourself to your brother! ”
Liuli laughed again: “Hahaha, yes, yes, yes, because I am a girl, my existence is a waste of air. No wonder when I was hospitalized, I overheard the doctor gossiping, saying that the mother of the girl who slit her wrists didn’t even want to sign the surgery confirmation form, and left without even looking at her after she was brought down. That’s you, my good mother. Are you thinking now, why didn’t I just die on the operating table?
Hahaha, I also want to know why I didn’t die, can you tell me? Why didn’t I die, why! Why! ”
Su Laidi was a little scared now. Lin Yao’s condition was clearly abnormal: “What are you doing! It’s like you’re trying to kill yourself over some money! ”
Liuli regained her composure, slumped to the ground, and murmured, “Why is this money not my life? The justice, the compensation I got after almost dying, I exchanged my life for it, why isn’t it mine? ”
The Old Man was shocked by Lin Yao’s situation. Her mental state was indeed not right. He quickly called Teacher Liu to ask her to come and handle it.
Lin Yao suddenly looked up, grabbed Su Laidi’s hand tightly, but her expression was unusually calm: “When I was discharged from the hospital, the psychiatrist said I was sick. Am I crazy? I don’t know, Mom, do you know? ”
Su Laidi disgustedly threw Lin Yao’s hand away, looking at the scratches on her wrist. With nowhere to vent her anger, she seemed to be unable to get the money, so she decided to cut her losses: “If you don’t go back with me this time, don’t ever come back. Why did I give birth to such a shameful thing! ”
After being pushed away, Liuli’s palm was scraped by the curb, but she seemed to feel no pain. She hugged herself tightly, as if only this could bring her a little comfort.
Lin Yao was curled up and squatting by the roadside, her knees pressed tightly against her chest, her chin sunken into the hollow formed by her knees. Every breath was like a stretched spring, difficult, fragile, and could break at any moment…
Su Laidi clicked her tongue and got into the car and left.
Liuli just squatted by the roadside, seemingly falling into a kind of self-protective defense mechanism, actually waiting for someone to give her a way out.
Bai Zhiheng returned to school and thought he had seen wrong. Why was Lin Yao squatting by the roadside at the school entrance?
The Old Man wanted to stop her, afraid that Lin Yao might become emotionally agitated again, but Bai Zhiheng was too fast…
Fortunately, it seemed to go smoothly.
“Lin Yao, what are you doing sitting here? What happened? Are you feeling unwell? ”
“Bai Zhiheng…”
Although Bai Zhiheng didn’t know what happened, seeing Lin Yao in a daze, calling his name, but without focus in her eyes, his heart ached…
“Lin Yao, I’m here, I’ll stay with you. If you’re unhappy about anything, you can tell me, and we’ll find a way to solve it together. ”
Liuli then looked at Bai Zhiheng, as if begging, as if longing, as if acting like a spoiled child: “Bai Zhiheng, it hurts…”
Bai Zhiheng immediately became nervous: “Where does it hurt? Are you injured? ”
Liu Yue arrived just in time: “Old Man, what’s going on? ”
Bai Zhiheng then realized he could ask the gatekeeper Old Man what had just happened. He was about to go over when Liuli pulled him back.
Bai Zhiheng had to sit next to Lin Yao, accompanying her, but his mind was already on the conversation between the Head Teacher and the gatekeeper Old Man.
Liuli pretended not to know and continued to be lost in thought in silence.
After listening to the Old Man’s recounting, Liu Yue couldn’t help but say, “Is there such a thing as a mother?!”
The Old Man quickly pulled Liu Yue: “Teacher Liu, keep your voice down. Don’t stimulate the child any further. I was scared by her earlier. ”
Liu Yue sighed: “This child had depression before, and later it turned into bipolar disorder, which is depression plus mania. But Lin Yao’s bipolar disorder is only mild, as long as she doesn’t experience strong stimulation, she can be controlled with medication.
The drastic emotional swings just now must have been caused by severe stimulation… Such a person doesn’t deserve to be a mother! ”
“Teacher Liu, the important thing now is how to handle this situation. ”
What else can be done, take medicine? But Lin Yao, who is hugging a book, certainly didn’t bring her medicine. Liu Yue walked to Lin Yao’s other side: “Lin Yao, where is your medicine? Can Teacher get it for you? ”
Bai Zhiheng felt very sorry for Lin Yao, but he didn’t know what he could do for her, to help her leave the abyss, to heal those wounds in her heart…
She led him out of the darkness little by little, but she herself seemed to be still trapped in the darkness, unable to move, and he was helpless…
Liuli wanted to continue with the heartbroken route, but Tuánzi said that Bai Zhiheng beside her was already worried sick about her, so today’s big drama had to end here.
“The medicine is in my schoolbag. The schoolbag is hanging on the back of my dormitory chair. ”