Reasonable Loss - 33

“Why? What happened? Why did Dokwon suddenly collapse?”

Eunsoo asked while wiping the cold sweat from his forehead with the back of his hand. At his words, Myunghee shut her mouth, and the doctor’s lips twisted in a scowl.

“There are too many signs of you in the patient’s home.”

“……What?”

Eunsoo asked again with a dumbfounded expression. The doctor cleared his throat and spoke in a monotonous voice.

“At first, it was a mild headache, but it gradually worsened, causing nosebleeds, and then he lost consciousness.”

“So…… are you saying it’s my fault?”

“Specifically, it’s due to signs of you. He must have tried to recall something while seeing them.”

“Isn’t that a good thing? It means he can recover his memories.”

“A mild headache is manageable. But fainting is an entirely different matter.”

“What’s the difference?”

“Repeated high-intensity pain leads to avoidance. It creates a fear associated with things related to you. Naturally, he will want to avoid it and resist. Recovering his memories will also be slower.”

Eunsoo bit his lips. It was the moment he understood why Dokwon was glaring at him as if he wanted to kill him.

Living as a top alpha, he probably had no idea what pain, suffering, or fainting was. Experiencing it every day, and that it was because of him, how could he not be hated?

Still, still…… this isn’t right. What have I done to make Dokwon suffer? What wrong have I done to not even be able to stand in front of him?

Eunsoo clenched his fists tightly. He glared at the doctor with his reddened eyes.

“So? Are you telling me to stay away until his lost memories return?”

“We will continue with medication and counseling. Please leave it to us.”

At the doctor’s clichéd response, Eunsoo gritted his teeth. He knew it wasn’t right to be angry at the doctor. He also knew the direction of the anger, which was boiling over, was misplaced.

But how angry should one be? How upset and hurt should one feel? Eunsoo glared at the doctor with his flushed face.

“Baby.”

Myunghee grasped Eunsoo’s wrist. Eunsoo looked at Myunghee with eyes full of unjust resentment.

“You can arrange to meet regularly. Dokwon needs enough time to prepare.”

“……”

“Twice a week would be good.”

Myunghee gently coaxed Eunsoo. But it wasn’t very effective. Twice a week. Even that would feel like a forced blind date, or an uncomfortable interview, dragging on for an hour or two.

Eunsoo knew that was the best option. Dokwon was sick, after all. What could he do? He understood rationally. The smart doctors would know best. He knew they weren’t doing this out of spite.

He really… understood. He understood well.

But accepting it was very difficult. Eunsoo rubbed his burning eyes.

The doctor, watching Eunsoo with sympathy, added, “The patient hasn’t just forgotten you, Eunsoo. He has forgotten everything. And he doesn’t feel that he’s forgotten; he feels the world has changed.”

“……”

“The people around him, even himself, the president has changed, the company situation has changed. There’s so much information he needs to learn. Among that, you, his lover, and the baby in your belly are the biggest changes.”

“……”

“So, you need to give it time and approach slowly. Forced and unilateral learning can easily lead to overload.”