Sunny Joy - CHAPTER 23

That day, the other roommates all had plans, so she and another roommate decided to go out for a stroll together.

This roommate is different from the others; she is someone who can keep secrets, won’t gossip or spread rumors, and isn’t a girl who uses harsh words to slander others.

There are many things she has kept bottled up for a long time. She really wants to find a sense of belonging, but she also knows that if she speaks out, she will only be criticized for no reason.

But she couldn’t say it directly. Along the way, they talked about the scenery, songs, and celebrity gossip, none of which were the purpose of her trip. It wasn’t until they got to the topic of emotions that she finally spoke up and expressed her feelings.

“Sigh, letting go of feelings is really hard.”

Her roommate indeed picked up the conversation as she expected: “Indeed, I can see that you still have feelings for him. You’ve been making calls and such recently, right? It’s with him, isn’t it?”

“Yeah, because letting go is really hard.”

The person next to her continued, and indeed, they got to the point she wanted to make: “That day, when our dorm was discussing your situation, I noticed that every time someone mentioned wanting to break you two up, you didn’t say anything. You don’t want to break up with Meng Ran, do you?”

“Yeah. I really didn’t want to break up. At that time, I actually reached out to you to solve the problem, but you all said I should break up.”

Roommate’s summary: “Originally, we wanted to solve the problem, but everyone just wanted to get rid of the person?”

“Yeah. At that time, I really didn’t want to part with him, I really loved him, just seeing him made my heart race.”

“I don’t understand. I’ve never felt a spark, and I don’t know what it means to like someone.”

“It’s a very strange feeling, something I can’t quite describe. You have to experience it yourself to understand.”

My roommate didn’t understand: “You haven’t been together for long, so why do you like him so much?”

“Do you believe in fate? It seems like he and I have such a fate. I didn’t talk about our relationship in the dorm before because I was worried that if I said too much, you would feel unhappy, thinking I was showing off.”

“So it caused problems later on. You only talked about his flaws and couldn’t find any of his good points, directly advising me to break up. I actually didn’t want to break up at all. Whenever I said something good about him, you would say, ‘See, you’re making excuses for him again!’ Actually, I was just being neutral at that time.”

“The first time I met him was that time I told you about when I mistook someone for him. He was the one who got mistaken.”

My roommate was also surprised: “Was it really him you were talking about back then? What a coincidence!”

“So I said, this might just be fate. Later, when I took the bus, there were no seats, and I accidentally fell into someone’s lap. That person was him again.”

Roommate complained: “You two are probably living in a different dimension from us, and you’re following the script of a romance novel heroine.”

“Later, the teacher randomly grouped us again, and we slowly got to know each other, developed mutual feelings, and gradually got together.”

“After we got together, he treated me exceptionally well. Little gifts on ordinary days, occasional surprises, thoughtfulness, care—he even prepared various things for me during my period. He didn’t originally like listening to music, but for me, he would patiently accompany me. He replies to my messages in seconds.”

Girls seem to be creatures who always enjoy self-strategizing. They will find all sorts of excuses to create the illusion that the other person has invested a lot and even erase some memories that are unfavorable to the other person for this purpose.

For example, the promises that were not kept; for example, the days that made her sad; and for example, the messages that were not replied to.

“That does sound like fate, but, babe, he has committed a fundamental mistake. He is still thinking about someone else, he can’t forget his ex! Can you accept that your boyfriend has a ‘white moonlight’ in his heart that he occasionally contacts?”

Song Ciyue explained, “Actually, I exaggerated a part of it. The problem wasn’t that serious; I misunderstood him. He hinted to me many times that he had an ex-girlfriend who kept pestering him and wanted me to go to her and assert my claim, but I never took it seriously. Now that I think about it, I really regret it.”

No matter what my roommate is really thinking, they are saying supportive words: “So that’s how it is.”

“When I saw it at the time, I felt very sad. I should have noticed this, but I…”

How should I put it? Bitter medicine is good for the disease, and honest advice is often hard to hear but beneficial in the long run. As for Song Ciyue’s relationship issues, we’ve actually talked about it many times, and I’ve said it many times. She should be clear-headed by now. Those words clearly express the opinion that this guy is not worth it.

But now, Song Ciyue is still acting like this. Although those words have some truth to them, the reasons behind them are quite far-fetched. An ex-girlfriend? The ex-girlfriend that his parents think is their future daughter-in-law? The ex-girlfriend who has a dedicated phone card?

Does she not understand? She does, but she prefers to live in the illusion created by the boys and doesn’t want to come out. For those who are willing to pull her out, she is unwilling to reach out.

Her roommate saw through her problems, her words, her intentions, but couldn’t do anything about it. She felt that her actions might have just been adding a bit of dirt to the pit Song Ciyue was digging for her.

But there’s no way around it; if the other person is unwilling to come forward, life is still your own. How you choose to live it is entirely up to you.

Later, Song Ciyue still talked about her own misunderstandings, blaming the mistakes on herself, recalling the beautiful memories of the past, being indifferent to others, and being gentle and considerate to herself…

That’s basically the core point. The roommate played the role of a good listener and gave the response the other person wanted.

So, everyone has stopped talking about this matter, and life ultimately belongs to oneself.

The two always stay in the study room or the library, and the girl would stay until very late, waiting for the other to leave, or they would dawdle in the elevator, trying to leave together.

At this time, he always smiled and said to the girl, “You’ve waited for me for so long, so let me walk with you to the dormitory entrance.”

They parted at the dormitory entrance, and he watched the girl walk away.

The girl has already gone upstairs, and from the window, you can see him standing there for a while before leaving.

It went on like this until one time, the boy got drunk. After getting drunk, he looked for her, and when the girl arrived, he wouldn’t let go of her, occasionally kissing her.

Perhaps under the influence of alcohol, the boy pushed her against the wall and kissed her deeply again. But they clearly shouldn’t be like this; she hadn’t forgiven him yet. However, she couldn’t help but succumb, thinking that if she got drunk, she wouldn’t have to worry and would forget everything.

Alcohol might be the best catalyst. Since then, Song Ciyue and Meng Ran have slowly reconciled, spending their days on voice and video calls, eating together, chatting, going out to play—probably quite happy, right?