The Cold Goddess Always Wants to Turn Me Gay (GL) - Chapter 17

She reached up to wipe away her tears and turned around. Not far behind her stood Qin Rui. His tall, thin figure held the handle of a suitcase. She didn’t know when he had arrived. For some reason, her mind went back to that night when Qin Rui was leaving for BeiQing. He had looked just like this—standing alone, quiet and frail—and just like now, seeing him made her heart ache.

A gentle breeze passed. The two of them stood still, neither taking a step. They just looked at each other quietly, as if by doing so, all the sadness between them would vanish. After a while, Xinxin finally moved.

Qin Rui watched Xinxin walk toward him. His breath felt heavy, his heart ached. His eyes were full of pleading. He wanted to ask her to stop, to turn away and leave—he didn’t want to lose her.

But in the end, the girl stopped in front of him and forced a smile, just like she did that night—so fragile it hurt to see.

“Qin Rui, let’s break up.” Her voice was soft, incredibly gentle. Qin Rui thought he had heard her wrong. How could his Xinxin not want him anymore?

“Qin Rui, I don’t want you anymore. You’re free now.” Her voice remained soft.

Qin Rui broke down. Every word she said felt like a heavy weight crashing into his chest. It became harder and harder to breathe. Every breath felt like it used up all his strength. He choked back his emotions, trying to keep his voice calm.

“Okay. I’ve been preparing to study abroad lately, so I might not have time to talk to you. Take care of yourself. We… we… breaking up might be a good thing.”

“I hope all your wishes come true.” Xinxin took the suitcase from him and walked away without looking back.

Qin Rui stood still, his eyes wet. In that moment, he felt something important had slipped away forever. Panic filled him. He turned around and stared at the girl walking away, fear clouding his mind.

“Xinxin!”

She stopped instinctively. Seeing this, Qin Rui’s face lit up. His Xinxin was still there. But soon, she started walking again, this time without stopping—resolute and firm, just like how he had once walked away from her.

Xinxin didn’t know where to go. She didn’t know anyone here. It felt like she was walking down a deserted road, with nothing around. She wanted to sit down and rest. She was so tired. But where could she rest?

Ding ding ding ding…

A cheerful ringtone rang in her ears. It sounded familiar. She paused for a moment, then took out her phone. A voice came through the line.

“Have you arrived in BeiQing?”

The voice was calm and cool, soothing.

“…Wei Zhi?” she asked uncertainly.

“What’s wrong?” The voice on the other end sounded worried.

“I… I think we just broke up.”

“Broke up? What happened?” The voice grew anxious.

“I…”

A loud car horn blared. She instinctively stepped aside as the driver passed by cursing.

“Xinxin? Xinxin?” The voice on the phone became panicked.

“I’m fine,” she said. It’s just a breakup, she thought. No need to worry anyone. So she continued, “Don’t worry. I’ll head back soon.”

“Don’t go anywhere. Look around and see if there’s a mall or coffee shop nearby. Go in and wait for me. Don’t move.” Xinxin didn’t understand why the other person was so agitated, but she looked around anyway. “There’s a KFC up ahead.”

“Good girl. Go sit inside and don’t go anywhere. I’m coming to find you. Send me your location.” Xinxin felt like her brain wasn’t working properly anymore. She just did what she was told—sent her location and waited quietly in the restaurant.

But doing nothing made her start thinking. And when she thought, her mind returned to Qin Rui—how he looked that night in the dark, alone and lost. His hoarse voice saying he was going to BeiQing. Her tears came again. Her throat felt tight, as if stuffed with a sponge.

Maybe they were doomed to break up ever since that night. Qin Rui’s future was too far away from hers. And to him, she was a burden—a burden he couldn’t let go of.

Since Uncle Qin passed away, he had been carrying so much. His mother’s hopes, his father’s last wishes, and his own feelings. He was tired. Thinking about it made her feel useless. Even now, she still ached for him.

He made a choice. He would move forward. But the end of that road didn’t have her in it. He was chasing a better future—there was nothing wrong with that. And she couldn’t accept betrayal—there was nothing wrong with that either. She didn’t blame him, or hate him. It’s just that from now on, her future wouldn’t include him. It would be hard, but she’d manage.

After receiving Xinxin’s location, Wei Zhi didn’t hesitate. She opened her phone and tried to book a flight—but every ticket was sold out. Her hands were shaking. Something was wrong with Xinxin. Panic rose inside her. Images flashed before her eyes, stabbing at her nerves. Fear surrounded her. Then, she heard a voice in her mind.

“I hate you all.”

It was faint, like from a faraway past—filled with hopeless despair.

She snapped back to reality. Xinxin will be okay.

Without a second thought, she made a call.

“Get me on the next flight to BeiQing. Now. As fast as possible.” Her voice was almost frantic. The person on the other end paused.

“I’ll arrange it right away.”

The waiting was unbearable. Fear slowly built up in her chest. Just as she was about to be swallowed by it, her phone rang again, pulling her back to reality.

“We’ve arranged a private flight. It departs in 20 minutes, direct to BeiQing. Someone is on the way to take you to the airport.”

She hung up, grabbed her bag, and left immediately.

Time passed. Night fell. Xinxin sat in a daze. The streets grew quiet. Fewer and fewer people passed by—eventually, there were none. After a long while, she realized she had been sitting too long. Her legs were numb. Her mind finally caught up—Wei Zhi said she would come. But wasn’t Wei Zhi in Jiang?

“Excuse me, we’re closing. Do you need anything else?” a voice broke her thoughts.

She turned and saw a staff member standing behind her. She felt a little embarrassed. She had stayed there all night and didn’t even order anything. Now she was holding them up.

“Sorry, I’ll leave now.” Xinxin gave an awkward smile.

The staff watched her go with a bit of sympathy. That girl had cried all afternoon. Who knew what happened to her?

Xinxin pulled her suitcase out into the cold night air. It was chilly. She thought about getting a hotel for the night, but Wei Zhi told her not to move. Would she really come? Xinxin wasn’t sure.

She stood there for a bit, too tired to think. Since she didn’t know where to go, she just sat down on her suitcase. She had already spent most of her day spacing out—what’s a little more?

Wei Zhi got off the plane, jumped into a waiting car, gave the address, and told the driver to hurry. The driver saw how cold and serious she looked and didn’t dare say a word. He had been called in the middle of the night by the company—just had to follow orders.

When Wei Zhi arrived, what she saw broke her heart.

Xinxin sat alone on the side of the road, like a little puppy someone had abandoned. She was lost in thought, head down, as if she might vanish any moment. Wei Zhi had been worried the whole way. Only now could she finally breathe.

Xinxin was still wondering where to go. She couldn’t just sit there all night, right? But Wei Zhi told her to wait. Should she go somewhere else? Just as she was hesitating, a pair of long, slender legs appeared in front of her. They were quite nice-looking. The person was in house slippers—seemed to have rushed out. Funny enough, Wei Zhi had a pair just like them. Xinxin looked up.

A car approached. Its headlights cast the figure behind it in shadow. Xinxin couldn’t see the person’s face, but for a moment, she felt safe—like a traveler seeing family, or someone lost in the desert finding an oasis. She had waited, and Wei Zhi had come.

As the light passed, she saw the person clearly and smiled.

“You didn’t even change your shoes before running here!”

Wei Zhi looked at her—her eyes were so swollen they were barely open.

“Couldn’t you wait somewhere warmer? Isn’t it cold sitting out here?”