The Female Lead is Looking at Me Differently (GL) - Chapter 48.1
“Who was the one who gave me the antidote last night?”
Although Fu Yu asked in a questioning tone, her gaze was fixed on Wen Zhao, staring at her intently, as if she had already made up her mind. Or rather… she believed that Wen Zhao must have been the one who gave her the antidote.
—Just as Fu Yu had refused to let anyone else give Wen Zhao the antidote when she was poisoned.
Her black eyes were filled with a gloomy emotion, staring straight at Wen Zhao, as if trying to see into her heart.
Hearing Fu Yu’s question, Wen Zhao, who was originally speaking, stopped abruptly, pausing in place. Even her breathing paused for a moment, and she subconsciously clenched her hand, as if this could give her some supporting confidence and make her no longer so flustered.
Wen Zhao didn’t know why she felt guilty and flustered at this moment. Perhaps it was a feeling that something she had been trying to hide had been discovered by Fu Yu, which made her subconsciously afraid, fearing that something else would happen.
But clearly, before she decided to do this, she had thought about all the “consequences” in her mind, and she had also repeatedly confirmed her determination. No matter what, she just needed to perform well in front of Fu Yu.
But even so, when she really faced it, she would still…
Wen Zhao couldn’t even look directly into Fu Yu’s eyes.
Sure enough, once she had feelings, she could no longer be completely indifferent and calm. Her mood would change with Fu Yu’s emotions. Her sadness and anger were all affected by Fu Yu, rejoicing in her joys and worrying about her sorrows.
Wen Zhao couldn’t say whether this state was good or bad, but… at this moment, she could clearly feel that her heart was beating for another person.
It was also an existence that was undeniable as evidence, that is, she had indeed fallen in love with Fu Yu.
She fell in love with someone she couldn’t and shouldn’t be with.
If it weren’t for her liking her, she wouldn’t worry about Fu Yu so much. If it weren’t for her liking her, she wouldn’t feel sad and upset about Fu Yu’s various things. If it weren’t for her liking her… she wouldn’t do something so intimate with Fu Yu under the guise of an antidote.
Wen Zhao took a deep breath and then opened her eyes, but she didn’t dare to look directly into Fu Yu’s eyes. She just looked slightly to the side and said, “It was me.”
Her eyelashes trembled, but she steadied her voice, “I gave you the antidote. You helped me once, so now, I’m just… repaying the favor.”
She said the last two words very softly, and perhaps even she herself felt a little guilty.
After hearing Wen Zhao’s answer, Fu Yu didn’t say anything, nor did she show any obvious emotions. She just remained silent for a moment, then forced herself to sit up.
Fu Yu raised her eyes and stared at Wen Zhao, “Look at me.” She said softly.
Wen Zhao’s breathing was a little unstable. Her eyes moved slightly, and then she looked at Fu Yu.
When she met those black eyes, Wen Zhao realized that she was actually so timid… Even though she had made up her mind and made a decision, when it came down to it, she would still subconsciously feel afraid and still want to escape.
It’s just that it was different from before. Now all her thoughts were just “thoughts”. Wen Zhao had already made it clear about her future with Fu Yu, so she wouldn’t change it anymore.
From now on, she would walk forward firmly, towards the end. And this, was the best way to handle things for both her and Fu Yu.
Looking at Wen Zhao, Fu Yu softly asked her, “Why did you help me?”
Wen Zhao steadied her breath this time and replied, “It’s out of gratitude, to repay you for helping me in the past.”
But Fu Yu didn’t believe her answer. She furrowed her brows and pressed, “Just out of gratitude and thanks? Are you sure? Are you sure there’s no other trace of personal feelings, no hint of… personal affection?”
Her black eyes were deep, “Are you sure you have no feelings for me anymore?”
She seemed to have already had an answer in her heart, so she was even more calm at this moment. It seemed that she didn’t need Wen Zhao to answer, and she already knew her answer. But even so, Fu Yu still wanted Wen Zhao to admit it herself.
Fu Yu’s brows were slightly furrowed, her expression was slightly indifferent, but her eyes were filled with persistence. She threw one question after another, full of a sense of coercion.
Wen Zhao, who was being questioned by Fu Yu like this, didn’t feel good. She clenched her fists tightly, almost wanting to avoid Fu Yu’s gaze. But she knew she couldn’t avoid it. She had to settle everything here.
Obviously, Fu Yu, who had been indifferent before, had now lost that icy attitude. She seemed to have noticed that Wen Zhao also liked her and understood that Wen Zhao’s previous rejection was a lie. So Fu Yu realized that this was a mutual affection, not what she had mistakenly thought before… that only she was in love. So she fell again, hence this attitude and entanglement.
But Wen Zhao knew that this was not possible, because… she couldn’t be with Fu Yu, it would be like a mirage, shattered at a touch.
In the end, what awaited Fu Yu was still that sad ending.
Thinking of this, Wen Zhao took a deep breath and her heart became firm again.
She looked at Fu Yu and for the first time did not hide her resolute emotion.
“Fu Yu, I think I said it once at the beginning, I… don’t like you, and the feelings I have for you are also fake, or rather, I never had any ambiguous feelings for you. What you mistakenly thought was just a wrong reaction caused by the effect of the aphrodisiac.”
“A wrong reaction?” Fu Yu stared at her fixedly.
Wen Zhao’s expression was calm, but her heart was completely opposite, nervous. At this moment, she could even feel the reaction of every muscle in her face.
“Our intimate contact was due to a mistake, and the emotions that arose from it were also a mistake. Now that the effect of the aphrodisiac has passed, I have naturally recovered my calm and rationality and escaped from my previous state, seeing my heart clearly. But you seem to have not yet, Fu Yu.”
T/N: Damn….. That hurts even me QAQ.