The True Record of a Flirty Omega's Failed Balancing Act - Chapter 45

Chapter 45

◎If it weren’t for the baby, would you have really not wanted me?◎

After Xu Guiyi and Ning Chanyue left, Xu Guiyi moved her scooter into Ning Chanyue’s car. She then had Ning Chanyue sit in the passenger seat, and she drove the car out of the rather luxurious community.

“I never thought our reunion would be like this… Guiyi.”

Ning Chanyue stared out the window, not looking at Xu Guiyi, and said this suddenly.

“What?”

“It’s just… a little melodramatic, and a little…” unfamiliar.

That’s right, Ning Chanyue had also secretly fantasized about what their reunion would be like. She had imagined she might be a little resentful, but as long as Xu Guiyi could put everything aside and coax her well, she would definitely come back. She had also imagined that Xu Guiyi might gently hug her, saying “I’m sorry” over and over again, and then she would look up proudly and say, “You better promise not to do it again,” and then they would make up after talking things through.

In any case… it definitely wouldn’t be like this.

On a night when her mother had just passed away and she had unexpectedly been found to be pregnant, she no longer had the emotional energy to say anything to Xu Guiyi.

Now, Ning Chanyue sat in the passenger seat, her gaze looking through the rain-streaked window at the hazy red and green scene outside.

“Ning Chanyue.”

When they reached a traffic light, she suddenly heard Xu Guiyi call her name again. So she turned her head slightly to look at her.

“Hmm?”

“I’m sorry.”

Xu Guiyi’s expression was especially serious. Ning Chanyue vaguely remembered that in the house just now, Xu Guiyi seemed to have said something similar in front of her and You Zhuoqing. But… that was mainly for You Zhuoqing, right? Given Xu Guiyi’s personality, this time she probably wanted to sincerely say it to her again.

Yes, maybe she wanted to properly apologize to herself.

But she always seemed to be apologizing to her.

Thinking of this, Ning Chanyue bit her lip and spoke her mind. “You always seem to be saying ‘I’m sorry’ to me, Guiyi. In fact, when I asked you to come for me, it was more because I didn’t want to stay with her. But… I also want to know, if it weren’t for the baby, would you have really not wanted me?”

This question seemed a bit too sharp, because Ning Chanyue saw Xu Guiyi’s lips move, but she didn’t make a sound for a long time.

But it was okay, she could still give her time.

Just as the seconds on the red light were about to zero out, Xu Guiyi slowly began to speak. “Actually, the reason I came back for you was because of the pregnancy, but not just for the baby. It was more because I knew it would be very difficult for you to be pregnant without an Alpha. I’ve also seen how painful it is for an Omega to be pregnant alone, and I didn’t want you to be like that.”

But after Xu Guiyi said this, Ning Chanyue, who had been waiting for her answer, slowly lowered her eyes.

She understood. Xu Guiyi’s implication was still that if it weren’t for the baby, she would never have come to see her again.

It was just that Xu Guiyi was her usual responsible self and couldn’t bear to leave her to suffer outside. The way she was treating her today was probably exactly the same way she had treated her newborn sister back then.

So Ning Chanyue pulled the corners of her lips and said, “…I understand. The light is green. Let’s keep driving, Guiyi.”

But perhaps wanting to talk to Ning Chanyue, after driving past the intersection, Xu Guiyi looked at Ning Chanyue through the rearview mirror and said, “You’ve lost weight, Ning Chanyue.”

“Mm.” Ning Chanyue paused before nodding faintly.

But in fact, when it came to losing weight, what about Xu Guiyi herself?

Ning Chanyue had noticed the moment she first saw Xu Guiyi that Xu Guiyi had also lost weight. Her eyes were sunken in their sockets, and she looked haggard. When she first glanced at her at the door, she was also taken aback before she could even recognize Xu Guiyi.

She remembered… her first reaction at the time was a pang of sympathy.

But perhaps Xu Guiyi’s words just now had been too much of a shock. Now Ning Chanyue didn’t say much and didn’t directly express her feelings at the time.

Probably sensing Ning Chanyue’s lack of interest, Xu Guiyi stopped talking as well.

The car fell silent for a time. Ning Chanyue leaned against the car window like this. With the bumpy ride, her eyelids became heavier and heavier. But just as she was about to doze off, she felt a gentle nudge from the person beside her.

“We’re home. Let’s go to sleep after we get inside.” Xu Guiyi said softly.

“Mm…”

Ning Chanyue, woken by Xu Guiyi’s nudge, slowly opened her eyes. But she was clearly not fully awake. After seeing Xu Guiyi, she stared at her for two seconds in a daze. Then, like she was addicted, she took a few deep breaths of the sandalwood scent floating in the car.

But soon after, after that breath, her consciousness slowly returned.

Ning Chanyue’s eyes, which had just been bright, dimmed slightly. After nodding at Xu Guiyi, Ning Chanyue moved a little away from her, turned sideways, opened the car door, and went upstairs with Xu Guiyi.

After Xu Guiyi opened the door, Ning Chanyue stepped inside. The room was dark, so she skillfully turned on the lights.

Ning Chanyue looked around the room. Everything was the same as when she left, with no major changes, but… it seemed like a familiar voice was missing, or rather, she didn’t see that familiar figure.

So she turned her head and asked Xu Guiyi, who was handing her slippers, “Where’s my sister? Is she asleep?”

“At Grandma Zhou’s. An’an has been spending the night at Grandma Zhou’s recently when I get off work late.”

Only then did Ning Chanyue seem to relax. She bent down and put on her shoes.

“It’s been a long night. Do you want something to eat?” When Ning Chanyue straightened up, she heard Xu Guiyi ask.

“No… I’m tired. I want to sleep.”

That’s right. Maybe it was too late, or maybe the sandalwood scent that was wrapping around her at this moment made her sleepy. Ning Chanyue felt like her eyelids were about to glue themselves shut.

But soon, Xu Guiyi sat down beside her and asked, “Where do you want to sleep?”

“I…”

Xu Guiyi only had one bedroom at her place. Where else would she want her to sleep?

Thinking of this, Ning Chanyue lowered her head slightly, but out of the corner of her eye, she happened to see the folding bed she had once wanted to buy. At this moment, it was still conspicuously placed next to the living room TV.

Or… did she still want her to sleep on the folding bed?

But perhaps seeing that Ning Chanyue hadn’t spoken for a long time, or perhaps also seeing that folding bed, before Ning Chanyue could even ask, Xu Guiyi spoke again. “If you don’t mind, you can sleep in my room, okay? I’ll go get you a blanket.”

Ning Chanyue nodded in agreement. Xu Guiyi got up and went to the bedroom, so she followed and gently pushed the bedroom door open.

“You’re here? If you’re tired, go lie down on the bed first. I’ll find a duvet cover to put on this comforter.”

Seeing Ning Chanyue walk into the room, Xu Guiyi, who had just pulled the comforter out of the closet, turned her head and said this. After that, Xu Guiyi shook the comforter and turned back to rummage through the closet for something else.

Xu Guiyi’s actions were as normal as what would happen on any night they had spent together before, as if none of this had ever happened.

This made Ning Chanyue can’t help but bite her lip.

Yes, what was Xu Guiyi thinking? What identity was she returning to her side with now? Was it as a former lover? As the Omega she had marked? Or… as the mother of her child?

None of them were good identities.

Ning Chanyue pursed her lips. In the past, she might have asked Xu Guiyi, but after such a long day, she really didn’t want to speak. She just wanted to find a place to lean on and close her eyes.

Let’s just do this for now. She’d sleep with Xu Guiyi tonight and ask her later when she had a chance.

After Xu Guiyi had the duvet cover on, Ning Chanyue had already gotten into bed on the inside. She heard Xu Guiyi say, “If you’re tired, go to sleep first. I’ll go wash up and do some laundry before I come back.”

…

But Ning Chanyue didn’t respond.

“What’s wrong?” Perhaps sensing that Ning Chanyue’s state was a bit unusual, Xu Guiyi sat on the edge of the bed and asked her.

“Nothing…”

Ning Chanyue looked up at Xu Guiyi. She thought that after saying this, Xu Guiyi would leave her—

But she didn’t. She was still listening, as if waiting for Ning Chanyue to say what was left unsaid.

So Ning Chanyue paused, and then opened her mouth again. But as if she lacked confidence, her voice was a little softer than before as she asked, “Can you sleep with me?”

“Of course,” Xu Guiyi replied quickly. Then, she took off her shoes, sat on the bed, and added, “You go to sleep first. I’ll do those things after you fall asleep.”

Wrapped in pheromones, Ning Chanyue quickly closed her eyes, and Xu Guiyi quietly left the room. But… when she came back after finishing her tasks, she saw Ning Chanyue hugging her pillow, her nose gently resting on a corner of the pillow, as if sniffing something.

This sight made the corner of Xu Guiyi’s lips curl into a smile. She took another pillow from the closet, lay down on the bed, and looked at the already sound asleep Ning Chanyue on her side. But as she watched, the smile on her lips froze—

Because she saw a tear hanging from the corner of Ning Chanyue’s eye, not yet fallen.

…Is she very unhappy? Why is she crying in her sleep?

That’s right, Xu Guiyi thought back. Ever since they met tonight, Ning Chanyue’s lips seemed to be drooping. She didn’t remember her smiling at all.

Why is she unhappy? Is it because her words back then hurt her so much… After all, besides that, she couldn’t think of any other reason.

Thinking of this, Xu Guiyi took a deep breath. She raised her hand and gently wiped away the clear tear from the corner of Ning Chanyue’s eye. But after wiping it away, perhaps out of sympathy or guilt, Xu Guiyi’s gaze remained on Ning Chanyue’s face.

How can I make her happy?

In the darkness, Xu Guiyi wondered.