Why Suffer for This Distress (GL) - Chapter 32

Su Xiyan clearly hadn’t anticipated the depth of He Jingmo’s kiss. She had originally intended only to seduce her into a pure first kiss, seizing the initiative to secure future leverage over He Jingmo. But clearly, this first kiss could no longer be described as pure. And the dynamic between the two of them had completely reversed.

Su Xiyan felt like He Jingmo was practically eating her. He Jingmo forcefully pinned Su Xiyan to the sofa, her body leaning forward, their chests pressed tightly together. He Jingmo cupped her waist with one hand and tangled her long hair with the other, completely focused on the kiss.

He Jingmo was entirely unable to control her actions. She had endured and waited for so many years, having fantasized about Su Xiyan’s body countless times, openly and secretly. The desire was like smoking opium; she knew it was unattainable and like drinking poison to quench thirst, yet she was uncontrollably addicted. Now, the real person was right before her eyes, the body she had longed for thousands of times in her dreams was beneath her. How could He Jingmo not be excited? How could she continue to control the desire in her heart?

He Jingmo’s head was hot, and she acted entirely on instinct, biting and sucking Su Xiyan’s lips. She forced her way past her teeth, ignoring her slight struggles, and thrust her tongue in, aggressively asserting her dominance. The sweet taste in her mouth made her forget everything, focused only on possessing the person in front of her.

Su Xiyan’s body went soft from He Jingmo’s kiss. She tried to retreat, but the sofa was behind her, and her body slowly slipped down. He Jingmo seemed to have anticipated this. She finally paused the kiss and stood up, straddling Su Xiyan with one leg on each side. Under Su Xiyan’s uneasy and bewildered gaze, He Jingmo tossed her obstructive long hair to the right side of her neck and wrapped both hands around Su Xiyan’s waist.

Such… such a provocative posture…

Su Xiyan felt like a slave being confined, and He Jingmo was her master; she was completely at her mercy. This thought thrilled Su Xiyan immensely, and she involuntarily let out a low moan.

“Mm…”

This sound further stimulated He Jingmo’s heart. She intensified the heat of the kiss, her right hand moving up to cup the back of Su Xiyan’s head, pressing her closer as if to devour her. Her tongue aggressively explored every corner of Su Xiyan’s mouth without hesitation. Su Xiyan was breathless, her face flushed with heat. She knew that if this continued, things would inevitably escalate. She quickly reached out to push He Jingmo to stop her from taking the next step, but her arms felt weak, unable to exert any strength.

“Jing-Jingmo… stop…”

He Jingmo was thoroughly enjoying the kiss and couldn’t be bothered by anything else. Hearing Su Xiyan, she didn’t even frown. Annoyed, she squeezed Su Xiyan’s chest and continued with her own business.

“Brother and Sister… are still in the room…”

Su Xiyan didn’t want a repeat of the erotic scene from earlier and had to grab He Jingmo’s hand to disrupt her mood. He Jingmo frowned, giving her an impatient glance. “So what?”

So what?! Su Xiyan was on the verge of tears. My dear King, have you gone mad? If your sister and my brother see us, we’ll be roasted alive! And you ask, ‘So what?’

I can’t care anymore. Su Xiyan struggled to break free from He Jingmo’s embrace. He Jingmo refused to let go, pouting, and looked at her full of grievance. “I just started kissing you.”

“Next time, next time, okay…” He Jingmo’s expression left Su Xiyan feeling completely powerless. He Jingmo drooped her head, still silent. She looked pitiful, like a child denied candy who had his only bite snatched away. This made Su Xiyan feel utterly embarrassed, as if everything was her fault. She coaxed and persuaded He Jingmo into her arms. “I promise, next time I’ll grant your wish. Whatever you want to do, I’ll let you. I absolutely won’t resist.”

“Really?!”

Hearing this, He Jingmo, who had been dejected a second ago, instantly brightened. She lifted her head, looking at her with sparkling eyes, clearly in a fantastic mood. Su Xiyan took a deep breath, knowing she had been tricked again. She felt like she had just swallowed a broken tooth.

“Really…”

Even though she knew she had been played, Su Xiyan had to agree. Based on her understanding of He Jingmo, if she didn’t agree today, the matter would never end. He Jingmo was finally relieved after hearing this. She glanced at Su Xiyan, turned to grab some water, and said, “Pull your clothes up. Who are you trying to seduce? Ugh, I’m so thirsty.”

“…” Su Xiyan looked down at her collar, which had been pulled down by He Jingmo, her face dark. She gritted her teeth. No, I can’t tolerate this anymore.

“Jingmo, let’s go inside and chat.”

Su Xiyan suggested with a smile. He Jingmo took a sip of water, looking at her suspiciously. “Chat inside?”

“Yes!” Su Xiyan nodded. He Jingmo blinked, looking at her slyly. “Inside—the—room—?”

“…He Jingmo, why are you so dirty now?!” Su Xiyan couldn’t hold back and erupted. Why is everything she says being twisted? What on earth is going on in this person’s head? He Jingmo didn’t show weakness and was even angrier than her. “Why are you yelling in the middle of the night? Are you deliberately making sure Brother and Sister hear us? What are your intentions? And you want me to go inside? If I don’t go inside, you yell loudly. Tell me, Su Xiyan, what exactly do you want?”

Su Xiyan was on the verge of tears. Fine, she knew that teachers were sharp-tongued monsters, and she couldn’t out-argue her. No matter what, this messy situation would ultimately be blamed on her. If that was the case, she might as well just be obedient and avoid further trouble.

“Jingmo, let’s talk. I’m just afraid it’s inappropriate for Brother and Sister to hear us.”

Su Xiyan negotiated in an extremely gentle voice. He Jingmo raised an eyebrow, looking at her, completely unconvinced. “What do you want to talk about that you have to go inside for?” She wasn’t genuinely afraid that Su Xiyan would do anything to her if they went inside. What He Jingmo was afraid of was her inability to control her own emotions… The kiss just now had shown her how fiercely the fire hidden in her heart burned. If it flared up again, He Jingmo genuinely couldn’t guarantee that she could put it out.

Su Xiyan couldn’t know her good intentions. Since she had been bullied to this extent, she simply decided to abandon all pretense and asked with a grin, “I just wanted to ask you, how was the first kiss?”

He Jingmo laughed when she heard her say this. She winked at her. “It wasn’t my first kiss.”

“What did you say?!” Su Xiyan’s face turned green. Was she cheated on? Was she not He Jingmo’s first love? He Jingmo saw what she was thinking from her expression. She smiled softly, cupped Su Xiyan’s face in her hands. “Silly, what are you thinking?”

“Quickly tell me the truth. What is going on?” Su Xiyan wasn’t joking. Her face was stern, clearly angry. He Jingmo smiled faintly. “Of course, it was you. Only you. Besides you, I won’t touch anyone else.”

That sounded a bit better. Su Xiyan was relieved. But then, after thinking for a moment, she realized something was wrong and immediately widened her eyes, looking at He Jingmo.

“Did you sneak a kiss from me before?”

“What do you mean ‘sneak’? I kissed you openly and honestly.” He Jingmo declared domineeringly. Su Xiyan looked at her admiringly. “How was it ‘openly and honestly’?”

“I kissed you when you were asleep.”

“…”

Su Xiyan was completely speechless. She just couldn’t understand why she hadn’t noticed He Jingmo was so quick-witted before. She would surely be tormented to death by her in the future.

“Go on, what else do you want to know?”

Since confirming their relationship, He Jingmo’s speech had become more confident and overbearing. She didn’t notice it herself, but Su Xiyan felt it most deeply. On one hand, she loved He Jingmo’s queen-like dominance, but on the other, she was worried about their future life. Regardless, Su Xiyan still believed deep down that she was the uke (receiver), and their first time had to be with her dominating He Jingmo.

“Jingmo, let me ask you one more private question. Logically speaking, we’re both this age. Normally… normally, if you have urges, how do you deal with them?”

Su Xiyan’s question was indeed very private. The moment she asked it, He Jingmo’s face flushed. Su Xiyan was embarrassed herself, so she rolled into He Jingmo’s arms under the guise of being affectionate. He Jingmo held her head and frowned. “You bad girl, how do you solve it?”

“I just watch videos. All kinds of videos, all the time.” Su Xiyan answered directly and smoothly, showing no sign of lying. He Jingmo wasn’t fooled. She adjusted her head, looked into her eyes. “Tell me honestly.”

Under He Jingmo’s gaze, Su Xiyan’s face also turned red. Her eyes darted away, afraid to look at He Jingmo. Her voice was so quiet it was almost inaudible. “I just take care of it myself.”

“What? Speak up, I didn’t hear you.” He Jingmo asked, suppressing a smile. Su Xiyan knew she was teasing her. She got angry, gritted her teeth, and replied extremely loudly: “If I have feelings and desires, I take care of it myself with my hand, got it?”

“…Sis, what are you guys talking about?”

No sooner had Su Xiyan finished speaking than Su Nan’s voice, sounding like he had just swallowed a handful of screws, rang out. Both of them were startled. He Jingmo abruptly withdrew her hand. Su Xiyan looked up and saw her brother and He Ranran standing nearby, looking at her with surprise and embarrassment.

Now, Su Xiyan truly wanted to cry.

Why is she so unlucky today?

Not only was she covered in essential oil, but her beautiful head was also pushed into water, and now her brother and sister-in-law had overheard such explosive bedroom secrets. She might as well just die. God, can you be any crueler to me?!

Just as Su Xiyan was questioning fate, her phone rang. She frowned, picked up the phone, and saw the caller ID. Her face turned white. No way, God, are you addicted to playing with me?

“Who is it? Why don’t you answer?” He Jingmo looked at her suspiciously. Su Xiyan took a deep breath and answered the call. “Hello.”

“Little Sūzi, have you been missing me?”

“President Xiao, aren’t you afraid Miss Xia will get angry if you call me in the middle of the night?”

“It’s a long night, and your sister Xiao can’t sleep. I urgently need your warm embrace.”

“What do you mean?” Su Xiyan was accustomed to Xiao Moyan’s unpredictability. Hearing this, she immediately stood up alertly and looked out the window.