Zion's Garden - Chapter 5.3
Zion grumbled and muttered above me.
“I can’t say that. You must have lived your life hiding your burning desires behind cold reason. Especially you, you’ve treated me completely differently from the doctors until now. Why? You refuse to fuck me. On the contrary, you don’t even beg me to hug you. When you kiss me, your expression is like you’re dying to be with Zion, but it’s pitiful that you keep struggling and pushing it away.”
I had to try hard not to cry.??……Because it’s dirty.”
It was a word that barely escaped his lips. Zion’s expression seemed to freeze for a moment, and he rummaged through the drawer again. He took out a condom and tore it with his teeth, smiling bitterly.
”Ah, you’re a doctor so you’re even more obsessive-compulsive. I didn’t think of that. “Don’t worry. If you cut open my body with a scalpel, all you’d find is the smell of disinfectant. That’s how careful I am, Zion. So you don’t have to worry.”
It’s not you, it’s me, you fool.
Zion paused for a moment, a question flickering across his face. I bit out my words, as if I were speaking to a beautiful yet untouchable work of art.
“…I don’t want someone like me to taint you, Kim Zion.”
“…What?”
This time, Zion seemed genuinely taken aback. Frustration surged in me as he repeated his question like a broken record.
“Didn’t you already know? You knew my name. You must have also known that I’m the son of a prostitute, that I’ve lived a miserable life. Your father, who was so righteous, must have told you…”
Her face came to mind. My mother, who had the face of a saint and sold her body. Did I love her or did I hate her? Hot tears streamed down my eyes, but I didn’t care.
”I… I… am different from those kids. Dirty
“I’m telling you that I won’t ruin you by venting my lust for you on you! I have absolutely no desire to drag you into my filthy, gutter-ridden life… huff!!”
Zion’s lips covered mine. He grabbed the condom, unwrapped it, grabbed one of my knees, and spread my legs apart. Then his hot pillar of fire pierced through my body covered in lubricant in one go. I couldn’t even scream in pain. My anus was contracting terribly at the invasion of the large intruder. Regardless of my will, clear liquid leaked out from the tip, leaving a stain on Zion’s flat abdomen. Zion put his thing in all the way to the root and only then released my lips. I felt like a fish impaled on a harpoon. The angel muttered as he watched me gasping for breath, clenching my teeth in unbearable pain.
”Not a single bitch is dirty.”
Zion slowly pulled out and then jerked his hips hard again, slamming his thick penis into my body. Zion was inside me.
”Ugh……!!!”
It hurt. It hurt so much that the tears just kept flowing and wouldn’t stop. He was too much of a burden for me to handle.
”Who said it was dirty?”
As Zion’s waist moved violently again, there was a sound of flesh rubbing against flesh. I thought that perhaps her anus had ruptured.
“I’ll punish all those people who say that.”
His movements gained speed. I felt like my back was going to break. I clenched my teeth to keep from screaming, and Zion took me without hesitation.
”Instead, cry today, Doctor. This is your chance to cry your heart out, so hold on to me, scream, and cry loudly. If it hurts, you can hit me. Here, as you say…
”It’s my last name. No one will find out. It’s safe here.”
Zion’s hip play was wild and rough, completely different from his affectionate voice. It felt like my whole body was being split in two. I pounded his shoulder with my fist and dug my short-cut nails into his back, but he didn’t stop.
“I haven’t heard anything about you from my father. I just learned your name today. That’s because I asked for it.”
”Ugh, ugh! Hah…… Ah!!”
”But even if I had known in advance, nothing would have changed.”
I wanted to lose my mind. More than the pain of his merciless penetration of my buttocks, his affectionate words poking my chest were so painful that I wanted to just pass out.
”Han Jeong-won… You are pure. Until now, I have experienced
”It’s so clean that it can’t be compared to trash.”
The last words he whispered in my ear were bloodshot. I lost consciousness as I had wished.
I felt like someone had beaten my whole body. Looking at the dazzling sunlight streaming through my closed eyes, it was clear that it was long past morning. As soon as I came to, memories of dawn vividly invaded my mind. I lifted my heavy eyelids.
Next to me, Zion was lying face down on the pillow, his left face buried in it. His beautiful blond hair was disheveled on the white pillow. I felt angry at his relaxed expression, like a child having a good dream. I barely held back the urge to punch his right cheek, which was turned toward me. If Zion opened his eyes, the memory of last night would become a clearer fact, more horrible than the current situation of sharing a bed with him. What tormented me more than the fact that I had been face to face with someone for the first time was that it was Zion. In the end, my reason was like a piece of paper that would succumb to my squirming desires, burn out, and disappear, leaving only ashes.
After washing my face, I slowly moved my body as the feeling of guilt washed over me like a flood.
”Where are you running away to?”
Zion, who I thought was asleep, opened his mouth. I turned my head and looked at him.
“You should rest a little more, Doctor. You overdid it yesterday.”
Shi-on spoke slowly, as if he was talking about someone else’s business. I tried to speak calmly, hoping that my voice wouldn’t shake.
”I get more tired when I’m with patients. Being a doctor is a job that requires a lot of energy. I’ll use my vacation days today. My room.
”I’ll be resting alone in here, so don’t bother me.”
”Ah, thank goodness.”
Zion chuckled and rubbed his nose against the pillow again.
”I was really worried that when you opened your eyes, you’d turn back into a masked robot. I kept hugging you and whispering in your ear until morning, and I guess it worked. Did you hear what I said?”
”You passed out, do you think you’d be conscious enough to remember what you were saying?”
“Are you angry?”
”Let go of my hand”
”I’m sorry for being so rough. I’m really reflecting on it now. I just couldn’t hold back because I was so excited after such a long time. But still, it was a bit much for Sion to grab the unconscious doctor and do it again. It must have been the first time.”
“I told you to let go of my hand. What are you going to do with me now?”
“I apologize,” Zion said softly.
“Okay. I don’t want to talk about that, so just shut up. And don’t bring it up again.”
“But… Zion wants to be with the doctor again.”
“This is crazy…”
It was my breaking point. I tried to shake off his firm grip and get up, but he pulled me back to the bed with surprising strength. It became clear that his unusual strength last night was more than just being under the influence. I steadied myself, forcing my voice to stay sharp and resolute, refusing to yield.
“Don’t get me wrong. I’m not like other people who will fall into bed with you just because you reach out your hand. If you’re looking for a casual partner, find someone else. I’m not generous enough to indulge your whims.”
“Yeah, I know. You’re different from other doctors, in many ways. But you don’t hate Zion, do you?”